I took care of a patient this week who was driving me batty. He was vented and very impulsive. He was constantly scooting down in bed and eventually pulled his NG out. I had many things that I needed to get done that night, like his bath, dressing and tubing changes and of course all this took extra long as he was moving around so much. I was very frustruated all night...not to mention impatient with him. I found out yesterday that he passed away. I feel very guilty about how impatient I was with him and have been going over in my mind that whole night...did I miss something? I am still on orientation, so my preceptor was with me...but I still worry. They believe it may have been a PE, but not sure...family declined an autopsy. (He had many many health issues). I was wondering if his restlessness was due to a PE...did I miss a big clue?? The rest of his assessment was wnl. Sorry, just rambling...and venting. Working with him that night reminded me that I do not have endless patience.