Hello Fellow Nurses!
I wanted to say hi and say that I've looked a little bit at this website, curiosity sort of thing and decided to introduce myself.
I live in Colorado. I am a new graduate as of May 2006. I was counting on a new grad program at a hospital very close by me in fall, so took the summer off, traveled (nursing school was tough!). Then at last minute, the program fell through and I ended up taking a job with the hospital where I precepted and also was employed as a medical transcriptionist for 5 years previous. The new grad program sounded so nice, with lots of orientation and following with a mentor for a good amount of time. It's just that they put it off until Jan 07.
In the meantime, I didn't feel I could just sit for another 3 months and not get a nursing job. So I took a position with the hospital I work at already, working 3-11 on an ortho-neuro floor with lots of medical cases as well. I've been orienting but feel so overwhelmed. The shift is crazy with D/Cs and direct admits and postops happening as I hit the floor. I am expected to be "on my own" in less than a week but feel totally overwhelmed. This orientation has been 6 weeks (with 4 on the floor). I'm frustrated w lack of help with aids (many times we don't have one...) There are a lot of other issues as well.
Before I go ad nauseum with this, I'll say that I'm giving it my best to go to end of year (my 3-month break-in period) and if at that time I still am feeling lost, I am considering reapplying for the original new grad program(they assured me they were having it in Jan 07, that they wanted to hold on to my entire application and be considered. I guess I can still consider myself a new grad, less than a year?)
Any feedback would be useful. I just feel overwhelmed that I am expected to know everything in such a short period of time and feel I am a liability to the floor rathern than an asset. I have never felt this way in any other thing I have done in my life.
BTW: I am 48 and went to nursing school (a life-long dream) later in life as I got my kids in college. My grandmother nursed until she was 70, got her BSN at age 60, being an LPN from her early 20s, so I figure I could do this!
I love my patients so it's not that I don't like nursing. It's being slammed with so much so fast!
Any feedback is welcome. Take care Everyone!