first pedi code

[laurainri]

evening everybody... need to let this out... I went to work today as a student nurse and I saw my first pedi code. adults I have seen many times and I am not bothered afterwards, but when I got in the car today after work I bawled like a baby. Tell me it gets better with time. At work I kept my composure but then all hell broke loose. They ended up taking the baby to another hospital. We did everything that we could and I know that. When you see a code come in and they are elderly you know that they have lived a full life but how do you deal with this when they are only 3mo old. any suggestions? thank you

[SKQQTR]

If your hospital is PEDS well then you "will" be involved in Codes of children. I don't know that it gets easier, people/staff learn how to deal with it. It's okay to seek help, pray or just talk we are all different, I'm able to leave the hospital behind when I go home. In one sense Pediactric Codes are hard because you see the life ahead taken away. I worked a Trauma Center for a number of years and Pediactric Codes are hard on everyone. However, you must understand that almost all (healthy) PEDS Codes are respiratory so your chances of a save are pretty slim to start with, that really does not make it easier and the Doctors tend to run everything possible protocol and beyond when a child is involved. This is a good place to vent as many folks here have been there too.