i feel like a horrible nurse

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I am a new grad RN, working 12 hour nights, fresh off orientation with a lot to learn. Beware, this might be a novel-sized post here.

Last night I received word from my charge RN that he needed to speak with me. He stated that the charge RNs got an email from a physician who basically stated that I neglected my pt from the day prior. The MD stated that my pt had vomited all over her sternal dressing, ab binder and gown and that I let it sit for over 3 hours. I checked on my pt q 1 hr during my shift and she felt nauseous but never vomited.

She was having profuse serous drainage from an open sternal wound. The MD had removed one JP because it hadn't been working properly but left another in. He also applied a dressing. The evening shift nurse reported to me that he had not touched it. At the beginning of my shift, I noticed drainage (not from the JP but the wound itself) had soaked completely through the dressing, ab binder and to the gown. I changed the dressing, packed the wound per MD order and charted accordingly. The order was for a dressing change BID. Unfortunately, I didn't know I could order a new abdominal binder and due to the complexity of her other issues the idea slipped my mind, despite the binder being stained with serous fluid. Additionally, due to my stupidity, I didn't realize I could change the dressing PRN despite the order being written BID.

Towards the end of my shift I noticed that she needed another dressing change. I gave report to the day shift RN that my pt needed a dressing change. After report I went back to my pt's room to f/u on pain meds. I took one last look at her dressing when a PA I was unfamiliar with came in. I asked him to take a look at her sternum because the wound looked macerated. He seemed very uneasy and somewhat reluctant to look at it but agreed anyway. I showed him the wound and stated that day shift would be changing the dressing soon. I am wondering if he was inexperienced and confused the moisture with emesis, though he never asked about nausea or emesis. The area under the dressing was incredibly moist with serous drainage and I strongly regret not changing that dressing there and then myself.

My charge nurse just asked for "my side" of the story and told me that he'd let the other charge RN know. He also made some comment about how that particular MD was mad at the unit about something else. But I don't know. I am so scared. The anxiety from this I am afraid may have effected my performance tonight.

I feel like a horrible nurse. What if it was emesis and not serous fluid on that particular part of the binder/gown? She told the MD during the AM she had vomited at 0430 but during my rounds she denied emesis and I didn't see anything on her binder except for the previous dried stain.

I am probably being paranoid, but I am really afraid I might get fired.

Any thoughts or pieces of advice for future reference would be greatly appreciated. As an experienced RN what would you have done in this situation?

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Specializes in Acute Care Cardiac, Education, Prof Practice.
trained--yes.

autonomous--no way.

I, too, would like to make necessary adjustments and even initiate solutions which are now out of my scope, but that is not the way it is. Yes, you can do that, and you can get away with it IF 1. the doctor knows and trusts you and 2. nothing goes wrong. But if either of those are not met, you are on your own.

We talk about autonomy in school or whatever, and i would welcome the opportunities that it would bring, but the fact is, we are the handmaidens of the hospital. If we weren't, why would janfrn write:

"I've had shifts where one or more of them were in the room with me for the entire shift, tossing out verbal orders left and right but not bestirring themselves enough to get off the chair, walk over to the chart on the overbed table and write any of them down."

???

Attitude dictates outcome.

Believe yourself a handmaiden of the system designed to be used, abused and neglected, then that you shall be.

Believe yourself a vital link in system of pt care, safety and resposibility, and demand the respect given to that position and you might just see a better side to all situations.

I am no one's handmaiden.

I am an autonomous adult with a professional degree in nursing, compassion, protection, advocation and above all respect to myself, my collegues and my peers.

Tait

Specializes in Post Anesthesia.

I'm not so sure leaving the dressing wasn't the best thing to do. Surgeons (esp CV surgeons) are notorious for thier denial skills. A dry dressing despite reports to the contrary means the incision is healing well. I'm pretty sure "that must be emisis since my patients incisions don't have problems" was part of the docs' thinking process. Give it some time. Once the docs get to know you and learn they can trust your judgement the petty complaints should go away. In the mean time I agree with many of my fellow posters, getting a mentor and seeking guidance is crucial to sucess in a CVSICU. Having a senior nurse as your advocate can go a long way to establishing trust with the surgeons as well. A word of advise: never tell a doc "nurse so-and-so said I should ...." Sometimes there is no right answer and the surgeon just wants to chew on someone. If you are the current entree please don't offer me up for desert. It won't make the doc any happier and I won't be giving you any further input besides "I guess you should call a doctor". It takes a year or more to get proficient at CVSICU. The medical and nursing staff know this and will most likely be spending a good deal of energy trying to "teach" you the error of your ways. Try not to take it so personaly. Everyone was new once and lived through the gauntlet. CVS post op nursing can be very rewarding and offers a lot of independence once you learn the ropes.

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