So I just found out a couple of hours ago that I failed my NCLEX-RN for the third time with 265 questions. The graduated nursing school in October of 2015 so the fact that I am not an RN by now leaves me feeling so embarrassed beyond words. I know that I am more than capable and I know that I know my material but for some reason this exam is something that I cannot overcome. When I took it for the first time in March of 2016 (I know I waited a long time after graduation I just have really bad anxiety) I knew that I was just ready, I failed around 93 questions, I flew through the exam and just did not feel like it was normal for me to have blown through it. My second time was taken 6 months later in September, I sat there for 6 hours and DID NOT COMPLETE THE TEST IN TIME, I know how crazy 6 hours and I couldn't even finish, when I realized how much time I had left and how many questions I had left (this time I knew it was taking me all the way to 265) I started to rush because I knew that running out of time was pretty much a FAIL. I failed, again, second time I was crushed but I had to hit the books, from these two times I did Kaplan, ATI, UWORLD, had a private tutor. Honestly I love UWORLD, I have probably given them thousands of dollars by now. Anyways I left 2017 go by and all I did was study, I didn't even attempt the exam in 2017 because I was too scared. Now 2018 came along and I took the exam Monday March 5th with the FLU (which I currently still have). I started the exam at 8 a.m. and finished at 11:30 a.m. completing all 265 questions. I left the exam uncertain I had no idea but most of me felt like I failed because all I've ever done was fail this exam. I checked around 10 a.m. today and saw FAIL and immediately started to cry. I felt so stupid even though I know that I have knowledge within me. I am trying my hardest not to let this get me down, I know that I am more than capable and all I want is to see the word PASS and finally be an RN. The thing I did differently this time was NOT TELL A SINGLE SOUL about my exam other than my boyfriend who I live with, this makes me feel a lot better because I don't have to tell anyone about my failure and I can just hit the books again and take it mid April (which I am going to I will not wait longer than I have to again). I am reaching out for not only support but for suggestions about which review route I should take now. I am not completely over UWORLD but I am going to just use that as doing questions here and there if I decide to tackle it again, but I wouldn't just do UWORLD alone. I am completely against doing Kaplan again I did it twice once in the classroom and once online and it just doesn't provide me with what I feel I need. I heard about HESI I heard about HURST (I am sorry if I have those two incorrect I don't know much about them) but I really am looking for help about which road of review I should go down. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE ALL THE FEEDBACK ANYONE AND EVERYONE CAN! I AM WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO PASS THIS EXAM AND WILL PAY FOR ANYTHING THAT ANYONE FEELS AS THOUGH IS THE BEST PREPARATION. I am trying so hard to keep it together and not come completely crashing down. Also, I feel like where I went wrong was the put in order questions where you drag them in the box, I felt as though I had a lot of them popping up and would love to know if any reviews focus on them more than others but like I said I just want to prepare the best way possible. PLEASE HELP! and thank you for reading and listening.
