Doing GREAT...In recovery, but written up today at work.

I can imagine why that would put you in a bad way, but whatever you do, don't let it tempt you to give up your sobriety!

I'm curious as to what, exactly, failure to "meet productivity goals" means in your job? Why were you written up, and what are the consequences if you don't improve? Are the productivity goals even reasonable? And what is DEC, and do you think asking for additional privileges is a good idea when you've been told that you're not meeting the standards for your current position?

Please don't take these questions as insulting; I want to help you, but I can't without a better description of what the actual problem is. I have 20 years in recovery, so I know what it's like being a healthcare worker with an alcohol problem. I'm sorry you're having a bad time. :hug:

I'm still having trouble visualizing what you do as a "health advocate". Are you a nurse? And if not, how do you get patient care privileges in this position?

I don't think you have anything to lose by asking, though. And it does sound like those "attributes" you speak of are rather subjective, meaning the scores are based on someone's (or several someones') opinion, rather than a neutral assessment of performance. My organization has something called the Core Values, which include integrity, excellence, service, and several other equally pleasant-sounding but largely immeasurable attributes' they look great on paper, but when I as a manager have to evaluate one of my employees on how they demonstrate the Core Values, it's really hard to quantify.

I'm sorry that you're subjected to a system like that; it rarely serves the employee well, and if your supervisors aren't invested in the hard work that goes into such an evaluation, it may not yield the results you want. So you may as well keep working to improve your scores, and ask for the privileges like you are planning.....as I said, you've got nothing to lose, and everything to gain. Good luck!