Does nursing school exist to eat your self esteem alive?
Ok, so I guess I'm not an overly confident person to begin with. I scored in the 94th percentile, nationally, for the NLN entrance exam. I felt pretty decent about that. I told myself " I guess I am somewhat "smart" ". However, I don't feel that way. I feel like EVERYONE is "getting it", except me. I fly by in AP & Math Classes..and I'm even alright in Nursing 101. That's not that hard of a class. But for our core nursing class, our teacher is something else..I feel SO ignorant. It's pretty lame..but I feel like it's destroying the meager self-esteem that I had to begin with. Basically, nursing school is not helping my confidence. It might be bad enough that I struggle with depression anyway..but I feel like it's pushing me in a downward spiral..into a black pit. What is my deal? I have no idea why this is such a big issue. Things that are worthwhile are NOT meant to be easy. I know this. I also know that nursing school weeds out the weak...so why do I feel so weak? This is so opposite of what I am like. It's actually sort of embarrassing to admit this. I'm starting to feel panicked and having trouble concentrating. There are times I literally zone out. It's like I'm "high" in space. At least I'm imagining that's what it would feel like. If I make it to next semester, we have clinicals. I feel like I'm going to be nervous since I don't feel like I know ANYTHING. Grrrr...I am trying so hard to focus. Has anyone experienced this? What did you do? I SWORE I would not let nursing school make me cry. In fact, I just KNEW it wouldn't make me cry. So much for that..I have cried so many times. I feel completely incompetent at times.
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Ok, so I guess I'm not an overly confident person to begin with. I scored in the 94th percentile, nationally, for the NLN entrance exam. I felt pretty decent about that. I told myself " I guess I am somewhat "smart" ". However, I don't feel that way. I feel like EVERYONE is "getting it", except me. I fly by in AP & Math Classes..and I'm even alright in Nursing 101. That's not that hard of a class. But for our core nursing class, our teacher is something else..I feel SO ignorant. It's pretty lame..but I feel like it's destroying the meager self-esteem that I had to begin with. Basically, nursing school is not helping my confidence. It might be bad enough that I struggle with depression anyway..but I feel like it's pushing me in a downward spiral..into a black pit. What is my deal? I have no idea why this is such a big issue. Things that are worthwhile are NOT meant to be easy. I know this. I also know that nursing school weeds out the weak...so why do I feel so weak? This is so opposite of what I am like. It's actually sort of embarrassing to admit this. I'm starting to feel panicked and having trouble concentrating. There are times I literally zone out. It's like I'm "high" in space. At least I'm imagining that's what it would feel like. If I make it to next semester, we have clinicals. I feel like I'm going to be nervous since I don't feel like I know ANYTHING. Grrrr...I am trying so hard to focus. Has anyone experienced this? What did you do? I SWORE I would not let nursing school make me cry. In fact, I just KNEW it wouldn't make me cry. So much for that..I have cried so many times. I feel completely incompetent at times.