I am a first year nursing student and I am in my second semester of nursing program. I am having a dilemma lately with one instructor. She is the last instructor that I have in this semester for my last clinical rotation. Instead of playing her supervision role in the clincal days with me, she gave me a lot of hard time. She documented all the little mistakes that I did in the clinical area, and threaten me that I would fail the clinical if I didn't improve (that's mean fail the whole semester of program, even if I pass the tests in the class). She picked all my grammer errors from my holistic assignments and told me that my English is not good (English is my third language) and if I don't get improve during her rotation, she wouldn't think that I could pass her rotation. She told me about all my weaknesses during my clinical day (we were in the hospital starting from 7am-12am. At 8:15am, She asked me to go to a private room. When I reached to the private room with her, I saw there was another instructor, who was never taught me for the clinical rotations, in the room too. They started to talk about all my little mistakes that I did in the clinical area. They said that I tried to slip through the program. To me, this kind of statement was not fair toward me and also toward the other 5 clinical instructors that I had before.), and I was very upset. I explained myself to them, and I cried in between the talk. I told them that it was not fair which they could document all my mistakes and tried to fail me without giving the chance for me to improve. They said they looked out the safety for the patients. I told them that I have never harm any patient, and all the patients like me very much. Then, they said there were trying to help me, that's why they gave me 3 days to show my improvement. I was very upset during that time. I asked the permission for me to leave the hospital and to make up a clinical day later, because I was so upset and stress from all the things that they told me. They wouldn't let me. I explained myself that I wouldn't think I could take care of the patient since I was so down emotionally. They said they could help me to go through the day together with me. I believed them, and I asked the permission to stay in the private room for another 10 minutes to calm myself down. They left. I cried as much as I wanted just to hope to relief the stress inside me. My eyes were red and puffy because of all the crying. When I went back to the floor, I saw my instructor was talking to my nurse. (She was telling her I have problems with my English)(I got this information from my nurse. She told me not to give up). After that day, I thought she gave me chances to improve myself, but I was wrong. During that afternoon, she showed all her documentations about me to the nursing director (without me present), and they all agreed to fail me.(I only know about that at the end of my following clinical day) On the following clinical day, she told me that I showed some improvements, but at the end of the same day, she told me she had talked to the director about me and failed me. I was totally disappointed about how she treated me and how she handled her supervision role in the clinical days. I want to appeal. ( I am not the only one in the class that feel this way about her) Can any one of you help me with my situation? You can email me if you like ([email protected]). Thanks
