Hi there, this is my first post...I've been lurking around for a while, but I finally got the courage to post.
Here's my question/dilemma...I have recently been diagnosed with depression on top of my ADHD...and it's been a really hard 6 months or so. I have a really hard time paying attention in class, and all I want to do lately is sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping and so once I do, I fall into this deep almost-coma and I've slept through my alarm on more than one occasion.
It's been affecting my schoolwork, obviously, and I'll pull myself out of a rut for a while and get stuff done, but then something goes wrong and it all seems to come crashing down around me and I just want to sleep for days and days.
Some days I want nothing more than to study and do well and be a nurse...and I'll sit down and work for hours, but then others I just sleep all day long. It seems like I do way better with being prepared and ready for clinic than theory courses...I don't know why. I just get this, like, paralyzing fear of doing ANYTHING and then I don't do it so I feel worse for not doing anything and then I feel worse about feeling bad etc, etc.
I've been to the doctor with concerns and she put me on Prozac, which...kinda (?)...helped? I don't know how much of a difference there was, but m boyfriend said I was less sad. But now I've run out of my prescription and my insurance got screwed up, so I have to go in and get that fixed during business hours...good thing my classes usually run till 5pm.
I need to talk to someone, I know and I know that our campus provides help, but I just...can't go?
Also, I just wanted to add that I'm well aware that I'm self-destructing here and that its NOT okay...and I do know that I want to be a nurse. I LOVE my clinic rotation, even though its SO HARD for me to get up that early in the morning to go. I can't describe how good it feels to help out my residents (working in a nursing home this semester), even though we're changing underpants and giving showers. There were a couple occasions when I stopped a care aide from doing something potentially harmful to a resident and my instructor told me she was really proud of me for acting like a "real" nurse. I also did a job shadow at an ICU ward and I couldn't stop talking about how awesome it was. So I know I love doing nursing things, but when it comes to the actual "school" thing, it becomes terrifying and I become paralyzed? Maybe I'm so scared of failing out that I'm causing myself to fail?
Anyway, enough of my whining. I was just wondering if anyone else has these problems and could share some advice or experiences...or maybe it'll help knowing I'm not alone.
Thanks for reading my novel :)
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Hi there, this is my first post...I've been lurking around for a while, but I finally got the courage to post.
Here's my question/dilemma...I have recently been diagnosed with depression on top of my ADHD...and it's been a really hard 6 months or so. I have a really hard time paying attention in class, and all I want to do lately is sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping and so once I do, I fall into this deep almost-coma and I've slept through my alarm on more than one occasion.
It's been affecting my schoolwork, obviously, and I'll pull myself out of a rut for a while and get stuff done, but then something goes wrong and it all seems to come crashing down around me and I just want to sleep for days and days.
Some days I want nothing more than to study and do well and be a nurse...and I'll sit down and work for hours, but then others I just sleep all day long. It seems like I do way better with being prepared and ready for clinic than theory courses...I don't know why. I just get this, like, paralyzing fear of doing ANYTHING and then I don't do it so I feel worse for not doing anything and then I feel worse about feeling bad etc, etc.
I've been to the doctor with concerns and she put me on Prozac, which...kinda (?)...helped? I don't know how much of a difference there was, but m boyfriend said I was less sad. But now I've run out of my prescription and my insurance got screwed up, so I have to go in and get that fixed during business hours...good thing my classes usually run till 5pm.
I need to talk to someone, I know and I know that our campus provides help, but I just...can't go?
Also, I just wanted to add that I'm well aware that I'm self-destructing here and that its NOT okay...and I do know that I want to be a nurse. I LOVE my clinic rotation, even though its SO HARD for me to get up that early in the morning to go. I can't describe how good it feels to help out my residents (working in a nursing home this semester), even though we're changing underpants and giving showers. There were a couple occasions when I stopped a care aide from doing something potentially harmful to a resident and my instructor told me she was really proud of me for acting like a "real" nurse. I also did a job shadow at an ICU ward and I couldn't stop talking about how awesome it was. So I know I love doing nursing things, but when it comes to the actual "school" thing, it becomes terrifying and I become paralyzed? Maybe I'm so scared of failing out that I'm causing myself to fail?
Anyway, enough of my whining. I was just wondering if anyone else has these problems and could share some advice or experiences...or maybe it'll help knowing I'm not alone.
Thanks for reading my novel :)