Dear...

[Living_True]

Good evening to all,

So my initial plan was to pursue a Bachelors of science in nursing. Perhaps even to excel my eduaction through a master degree. For a while I have been seeking high and low for answers ,and have had many questions.

I am not sure If I have just found myself in the wrong place at the wrong time or have I been mislead or misguided. I know where I have been tying to get , but did not know where to start or How to get there.

I feel there are so many superiors to me. Why I wanted to pursue nursing? was not because 99.9 people wanted the same. At that time I was in high school. I was really eager for a career in veteranary medicine,but due to the lack of guidance I fell back on something were I could put my self and still be me. At the time, nursing was not commonly heard of. At least I did not hear of it around every corner. Going into college it changed throughout the course of my studies. Nursing became a common word in every class, course pre req etc. Even throughout my personal life people outside of school.

I found myself at the peak of school to transfer. I guess at the time all i knew was I would be graduating with my pre reqs ,but was not aware or prepared what to do next, Which sounds ridiculous ,but being new and facing these challenges on your own things can become insanley ridiculous. Perhaps a simple application or exam or clear instruction ,which can seem overwhelming.

This career attempt has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I cannot think of anything more difficult or maybe it just became harder with the increase in demand. One thing I have learned to manage is the frustration to those who have made it through without prior knowledge, compassion for the career and just doing it for the money and employment. I understand many who get through get there fairly ,but to were I am now I beg to differ. I do not feel everyone gets through fairly. I am not saying this because I may not percieve my dream or vision as a potential health care proffesional. I do not feel a paper or exam can determine someones capablility. Then we have so many rude nurses who get through or even people who earn their way through a system or through referneces.

I do not have none of that. It has been a year what have I been doing? I had been trying to figure out what was the Hesi A2, how hard was it what else did I need. I was completley confused for months I studied after finally buying the review. I took so long because of so many perceptions that this exam was hard and in my mind i felt i would not know the information on it, I felt that I would never be ready, which now is ridiculous to think when you have studies that supplement the career. "Little did I know".

I became so afraid I stalled and focused on others opinions. I finally scheduled and took it about a month ago I passed. I thought that the nursing community was through compassion, nurture care and the willingness to help others with dignity and pride I have been over shadowed with sadness through the eagerness of what i thought nursing actually was..... I dont understand why so many become stuck up or stingy. I get its competetive and we are all trying to make a living ,but at the end of the day what really is nursing?

I have found my self discovering new information everyday. I realize I may of approached my goals incorrectly. Simple things have set me behind and it sucks... Every day it gets harder schools are changing their requirements , adding new things, adding policies expiration periods, Adding subtracting exam sections, changing exams etc. I have come to confront my fear that this may not be for me and it aches deep down in my core. I do not know what else I can pursue and make the best of what I have with my associates without having to take anything in addition. Is there any suggestions or alternates for former nurses who didnt become nurses? What other career options are enabled other than nursing?

Its disspointing that there are many particular perspectives of the field and what it is. Everyone may want it ,but not everyone gets through. For those who are so self centered whats the worry of providing advice or simply sharing your experiences is it fear or what? I personally do not think anything is taken from someone looking up to you for advice based of your success. Most may not even surpass you or get to were you are... I am emotionally disgusted, upset and anxious.

I feel like a failure I do not want to get my hopes down because only time will tell. I just cannot afford to continue to pay 100 plus for repitition of admissions exams because of the diversity of requirements. I pass ,but due to the lack of information have complicated my options. To late now.... I do not want to feel as if I must keep investing and not have guarentee of a seat. I am barley making it and still its hard to find a stable job with no proffessional experinece, certification, or license.

Any suggestions or advice are greatly appreciated. I am trying to keep my head held high ,but I am at my worst I am about to be 22 and personally my life is not at its best. Things do not seem to be falling in place ,and I do not know who else to reach out to or speak to I have no one ,but myself who can understand me. I have tried reaching out to schools in my area ,and I guess advisors and councleors are annoyed with "nursing" I guess the popularity in calls and concerns has become annoying, So they just ignore you. Anyways, thank you in advance to those out there willing to be a role models to others.

[Simplistic]

You should be a writer.

[paisling]

It sounds like you have been overwhelmed by choice and are just throwing stuff at the wall to see what sticks, hoping stuff will magically align for nursing school. So first: you need to focus. You are only 21/22. Your life is not over because you aren't in a career. Stop comparing yourself to others. Comparison is the thief of joy.

Start small. Are there nursing schools near you, or are you looking at programs all across the country?

Do you have a degree now? What do you have?

Here's what I would do if I was you:

- make a list of all the schools in my areas

- go to their websites and see if they have a nursing program

- make a new list of just the nursing programs, and note if it is an LPN, ADN, or BSN program.

- think about your options. Do you need to start at BSN? could you do an ADN and then do a bridge to BSN instead?

- read more about the schools. Look on this forum. Read their website. Schedule a prospective student visit.

- narrow down your list of schools/programs. Compare their entrance requirements.

- most of the time, you will not do direct entry into nursing. You need to do pre-reqs. And regardless of what program you apply to, you'll need classes like A&P and chemistry. If you haven't taken any pre-reqs, then don't waste your time randomly taking the HESI and TEAS.

And honesty it doesn't matter if you don't think a test shows someone's ability to be a nurse. You're going to have to take exams and do busy work and other things you don't want to do. Accept it. Life is not always 100% what you want it to be.