CRNA vs MD

-Former Infantry Soldier (11B) 2011-2015

-Nursing student, ADN December 2018

-Anatomy/Physiology tutor employed through college.

-Age: 24

-VA disability rating: 70%

My conundrum: I have not utilized any VA benefits (post-9/11 or Voc Rehab) I have been fortunate to subsidize education with grants, as well as, scholarships. So my RN degree will be covered, debt free. I also receive 1388.00 a month for my service-connected disability. I do not feel satisfied with the RN role, although I respect the workforce. I entertained A/G ACNP for the autonomy, work/life balance. For a while I was hard-pressed to pursue my CRNA. I am aware of the CC experience necessary, chemistry prerequisites, and DNP requirements.

Now I am having doubts, and the MD route is looking very handsome. Although I may be able to pay for Medical School through the VA this is not a guarantee. The problem lies in the fact the RN pathway is not congruent with the lines of medical school. I would have to attain BSN, as well as: Chem I,II, Physics I,II, Bio I, II, Orgo I,II and the MCAT. I hear the MD route is not a well balanced option. As medicine will consume your time.

I'm having conflicting feelings on whether I should persue medicine, or an advanced nursing role.

I always strive to be the best I can, and I feel somewhat hollow on nursing. I know I shouldn't feel this way.

Do any of you feel this conflict.

I would be the first healthcare professional in my family.

All comments welcome.