it's 3pm and i have clinical at 5:40, it's my first one. but i am wrestling within myself. because i don't want to go. i truly feel like i want to just give up. i am so sick of crying and dealing with a mega monster of an instructor who of course happens to be my clinical instructor too. she has about 75% of the class failing. we are their "guiena pigs" because we are the first class to start their ladder program which is nuts and i did not sign up for this 2 years ago but what can i do now. it's pretty much self-taught. no demonstrations, not much of anything! so i am so scared of clinical tonight. i feel so alone and lost and conflicted. i do want to be a nurse but i feel like all the sacrifices that i am making,miss my kids and husband, and to not be passing is just not worth it. everyone keeps saying to just finish out the semester, but for what if i don't even pass. and tonite is really scaring me because i know that she will just feed me to the wolves. and i am a nursing virgin too, i have never worked with patients or anything like that...........
don't want to go, but don't want to give up either......
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Jorla, good for you!