my husband and i moved to a small town from a decent sized city so that our daughter could grow up with my parents (their only grandchild). the move had us feeling so positive and hopeful, and now it seems we are more trapped than ever. i left my job as a charge nurse on day shift working with people i (mostly) loved and am now working nights under charge nurses who have been nurses less than a year. the job i left was med/surg and the job i'm at now is as well. the thing is, i'm starting to feel like this was all a big mistake. my source of stress related to my job is many fold. the fact that i'm working with all new grads/new nurses is hard and kind of awful. they're arrogant and snotty and don't know what they're doing. nights are killing me, because i'm not a night person and i feel so guilty not just leaving my baby at night, but for sleeping during the day! i'm also getting burned out by the work itself. the patient population here is far ruder and much more entitled than where i worked at before. the nurse to patient ratios are higher than at my previous job, and the patients are more acute. it's not a good combination. i have been thinking that it's time to leave med/surg and find a new area to work in. however the problem is that 1) i've only been at this job for two months, and 2) there are no other hospitals in this town. apparently you have to be on your unit a year before you can transfer. i understand why that's in place, especially for a hospital with so many new nurses; however i've done my time, albeit at a different hospital, and i'm feeling trapped. this job is killing me on the inside. i cry before i go to work. my stomach turns and my muscles tense. i have no advocates at work, no one has warmed up to me, despite making an effort to break the ice. the charge nurse always gives me an assignment that's at the other end of the unit far from everyone else and i'm stuck there by myself all night long. it's disheartening and i'm not sure what to do. i don't think i can hang for a whole year. my manager knows i would prefer days and yet is unsympathetic. any words of wisdom would be much appreciated. sorry for whining.
hello all,
my husband and i moved to a small town from a decent sized city so that our daughter could grow up with my parents (their only grandchild). the move had us feeling so positive and hopeful, and now it seems we are more trapped than ever. i left my job as a charge nurse on day shift working with people i (mostly) loved and am now working nights under charge nurses who have been nurses less than a year. the job i left was med/surg and the job i'm at now is as well. the thing is, i'm starting to feel like this was all a big mistake. my source of stress related to my job is many fold. the fact that i'm working with all new grads/new nurses is hard and kind of awful. they're arrogant and snotty and don't know what they're doing. nights are killing me, because i'm not a night person and i feel so guilty not just leaving my baby at night, but for sleeping during the day! i'm also getting burned out by the work itself. the patient population here is far ruder and much more entitled than where i worked at before. the nurse to patient ratios are higher than at my previous job, and the patients are more acute. it's not a good combination. i have been thinking that it's time to leave med/surg and find a new area to work in. however the problem is that 1) i've only been at this job for two months, and 2) there are no other hospitals in this town. apparently you have to be on your unit a year before you can transfer. i understand why that's in place, especially for a hospital with so many new nurses; however i've done my time, albeit at a different hospital, and i'm feeling trapped. this job is killing me on the inside. i cry before i go to work. my stomach turns and my muscles tense. i have no advocates at work, no one has warmed up to me, despite making an effort to break the ice. the charge nurse always gives me an assignment that's at the other end of the unit far from everyone else and i'm stuck there by myself all night long. it's disheartening and i'm not sure what to do. i don't think i can hang for a whole year. my manager knows i would prefer days and yet is unsympathetic. any words of wisdom would be much appreciated. sorry for whining.