Being a Nurse


With all that has happened the past two weeks I have had folk ask "Why do I stay in the Nursing field." I decided to tell a deep kept secret....What made me go into Nursing. The true reason, that goes back so long ago.

I never wanted to go into Nursing at first. I actually wanted to go into Physical Therapy when I was being given Aide after I got out of the Navy. I ended up on the streets of Boston from my Naval experiences (my family and wife knows about it. I will not go it here). I was helped to get off the Streets at that time, and was given paid ability to go back to school, to make a career to bring me back from the brink. All I could get was Nursing. I went through the course and still did not want to be a nurse....UNTILL something changed my mind. A tiny lost child during my clinical rotation.

I did my clinicals on a pediatric unit long ago in the past. I was told that I would be caring for a small child. I looked at that tiny little boy, curled up and afraid of everybody due to abuse from his parents. Something touched me deeply about him, growing over those 5 days. Watching that frightened child open up into a smiling little boy. And on the last day, when he ran to me and hugged me - I realized "I" was the one responsible for the smiling laughing boy in my arms holding me tight.

I still had reservations, being a nurse. Then something close to home put me on the road that I now travel. My mom had lung disease. I moved home to try to comfort her. One night, being the dumb stupid young man in his 20's, she asked me to stay with her and I got angry....wanting to go to a bar.

Today I would had given up all my nights going to party....if only to sit with her all night - to have her one more day. A few days later she went in to the hospital. I was told she then went to a Nursing Home from the hospital.

The next morning when I got home my sister Denise met me at the door. She told me mom had died during the night. I went down to my room and just sat there on my bed.

My family and my Mom believed I hated her from the past. They never knew I sat their alone crying for a long time. I cried because she died alone.

While I was at another Nursing facility, my mom died alone.

And I made a vow. A Vow that no matter what happens....if it is ever in my power to keep it from happening to another -

Another person will not die alone and afraid. I will be with him/her....holding that hand.


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I needed to read this. Thanks for sharing. I am in my first semester of nursing school and struggling. I was beginning to wonder why anyone would put themselves into a profession which is incredibly demanding. Your post reminded me why I chose to get into this profession in the first place.

TheCommuter, BSN, RN

226 Articles; 27,608 Posts

Specializes in Case mgmt., rehab, (CRRN), LTC & psych. Has 17 years experience.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts so very eloquently with us. You captured some of the intangible rewards that the nursing profession has to offer using such graceful words.


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Thanks so much for sharing. I was touch. I'm Graduate Nurse and this made be think about the real reason why I choose To be a nurse.

Has 33 years experience.

Well said. Keep aware doing those situations... you will see some amazing things.