Another Vent

Sorry in advance, i know everyone who knows me on this bored is sick to death of my vents, but i really have no one else. LAtely I have been feeling very discouraged, I think it;s mainly becaus of my lack of employment. Not working makes me feel lazy. I just don't know why nobody wants to hire me. I have been following all the tips I recieved and really putting forth an effort. I feel really bad becauseI look back at the jobs I had amd really wish that I knew hen what I know now. I had two wonderful job oppurtuities and scrwed them both up. I had a nice job at an eye doctors office and a job at a nursing home that i really loved, but I go stressed one day from a long week at school and decided no to go in. I talked to my DON and she made me think my leaving was ok, but i guess since i was still in my "90 days" they didnt value me. I know it wasnt long ago, but I really wish I had the maturity and knowledge that i aquired lately back then. I really took my oppourunities for granted. I dont know why i was the way i was a couple of months back, it may have been some kind of "teen crisis". my mom says that i made those mistakes because i was burned out from working and going to school since age 14, and that now that i am in college and its a little more stressful. i agreed but i dont know. i want to work in my feild and use the training, knowlede, and desire that i have to learn and make a difference in somebodies day if not life. i just wish i could get this across to employers. i can even say that acording to my rap sheet with jobs that i dont deserve and good job, but i am so much more than a resume and an application, it does not represent me now because of the mistakes i have made in the past. i am still applying and working hard and hopefully something will turn out. well thanks so much for listening again. i really dont know what i'd do if i didnt have you all to vent to. and your advice is always honest and helpful. thanks again