Another semester begins

[NurseDaddy2006]

Yesterday was the start of our semester. It's a whole different feeling this time around. First off, last semester there were only about 19 or so in the class. This semester, there are about 40, or at least it seems that way. We've got 4 clinical groups. This is the last semester of an ASN program, and we'll be doing some med surge, and OB.

I had told my professor from last semester that I wanted to have her be my clinical instructor, and she said she would make sure I'm in her group, but it did not turn out that way. Instead I'm in another clinical instructors group, and this new one seems nice, if maybe a bit intense. I dunno. Thats the feeling I got today during her talk about what she expects from us. I'm a bit overwhelmed at the moment. The professor I wanted for clinical is very laid back and confidence-inspiring, though she lacks focus during lecture.

See, this is the same professor who had some personal issues disrupt her ability to teach and caused our class a whole lot of problems. She said she might give the lecturing duties to another professor this semester, but that has not happened just yet. We'll see.

Another interesting dynamic: When I was in Nursing 103/104, I was in with a whole bunch of girls who got very cliquey. They'd acknowledge that I was a human, not just vapor or some other less than visible entity. They'd especially make it known that I was to be spoken to when they needed help with something. After 103/104, they went elsewhere for nursing 105, and any time they'd see me, it was like I was indeed vapor, transparent, pretty much non-exisistant. Now this did not bother me, per se, but I found it interesting that adult students (using that term loosely for these women that are 20 something to 30 something and some 40 somethings) could act so much like highschoolers. I'm not there to make friends, I'm there to be a nurse, but still...

Then some of the 105 classmates I became associated with went to 203 with me. And they were OK around me, acknowledging that I'm on the planet, addressing me by name, especially willing to ask me for help in various situations. But then when I registered for 204 and did not get in to the class they were going to be in, but then managed to switch in, something changed. They did not want to sit near me any more, and the email correspondance I had going with one of them ceased. I was no longer part of their group, even though I was in the same class still, and would be going with them into the next semester. Until of course they needed something, again.

Now in 204, there are quite a few classmates I started the program with in 103/104, and a few that I know ever since 105, through 203, and now 204.

And in the last two days they've all displayed that type of behavior that can lead you to think you dont exist. I expected this, I guess. But I was hoping it would not be this away. Silly me.

There is still one classmate of mine that has been through this entire program with me, and she is still associating with me, so that's good. I hope she makes it through. She's pregnant now, and has placenta previa, and is due a few weeks after we graduate. I hope she makes it. Then there's another classmate who has hated me since day ONE. Literally, since orientation day when for some reason she picked a fight with me during a simple discussion during a lecture on communication. Since then, we've been oil and water. We went through a few semesters of barely tolerating one another. I was glad to see her go to a different class. But when it came to registering for this one, she actually got the last seat, shutting me out right as my turn to register came, and gloated about it. Then when I put up a notice on the bulletin board that I wanted to switch in, my notice was mysteriously taken down over and over every time I put it back up, in order to keep me from getting a seat in that class.

Well I did get a seat in that class. And yesterday when everyone came in, and she saw me, she had to sit down and say to herself out loud "let me see if maybe I'm in the wrong class room". When she saw that she wasnt, she switched seats so she's sitting behind me instead of adjacent to me. Whatever. I will continue to tolerate her as I always have, and if I get any grief, I'll make it known that we don't have to like eachother, but we have to get along. Perhaps she is why I'm not in the clinical rotation with the professor I wanted...because she is. Hmm. I wonder. Whatever.

All I know is there are just 114 calendar days until the last day of the semester. That's all I have to do is keep my eye on the prize, and get through it. I'll be back posting more, I'm sure. Thanks for bearing with me.

ND

[Thunderwolf, MSN, RN]

All I know is there are just 114 calendar days until the last day of the semester. That's all I have to do is keep my eye on the prize, and get through it. I'll be back posting more, I'm sure. Thanks for bearing with me.

Hang in there, my friend.

Karma, my friend...karma.

She get her desert much later on and someone will set her straight.

What goes around, comes around.

Just focus on the prize, like you said.

Wish you the best this semester.

Love your posts about school.