Another one feeling overwhelmed

[mmc51264, BSN, MSN, RN]

I have been orienting at a LTC/Rehab facility for not quite 6 weeks. Some days I feel ok, others, kinda good, some, just so overwhelmed I want to cry. Last night was a rough night. In the rehab portion, there are some very demanding pts. We had an inservice which put us back an hour. Thank goodness I am still working with a preceptor! She documented vitals and spent most of the evening getting meds sorted (calling MD/Pharmacy) for 2 new admits while I spent almost the entire time passing meds. Granted, I do like to spend a little bit of time talking to the patients, but not more than a minute or 2.

The LTC side lost a pt rather unexpectedly and even though I have not been there as long as half the others. It affected me.

Many of the people there have been there a very long time and I feel like a little bit of an outsider. They are all very helpful; no one has been anything other than kind to me. I just pray that this gets a little easier. I am the only non-supervising RN. The rest are LPN and CNAs.

Someone tell me that is gets a little less overwhelming. I really like the job and ignore those who tell me I was nuts to go into LTC/Rehab.

I have a love/hate relationship with having preceptors. I am certainly not ready for a hall to myself, but sometimes feel that the preceptor doesn't know what to do with me. I am mostly with one or two, but on weekends, there are different people, some who don't assume I can take a blood pressure properly.

Thanks for letting me vent :)