First of all, let me tell you a little background and give you the reason why I wanted to start this blog.Reason for the blog: I need someone to talk to. I could start a journal, but who reads that besides me and quite frankley, I don't want to be the only one reading my woes; I like people, I like to talk to people and get their opinions on my life. I love feedback, I love CONSTRUCTIVE criticism. But mostly, I am not the type of person who likes to keep her feelings inside. I have to let them out, them go of them and move on.Being a new nurse is not at all what I expected. To be honest, I'm a little scared. I had 2 weeks of orientation, I have 20-25pts at one time to care for (but they are not acutely ill so its a doable task). I feel like everytime I go into work I'm going to be criticized for something. I'm going to be scolded for not charting. And that's another thing: I forget to do certian things. Last night I forgot to chart on a woman with swelling in her legs that she was concerned about. I addressed the issue, called the doctor and received orders for medication to help with the swelling, but I forgot to chart about it.....and its really weighing in on my heart that I didn't chart on it. When I walked in the door yesterday, the charge nurse from the previous shift (infront of everyone) said "Dr. ****** was really upset that you didn't get the blood sugar on this patient." I explained the situation of the night before, however I did not chart that the patient refused me checking her blood sugar. Charge Nurse: "well, from now on...chart it." and then I had another LPN (which is lower on the scale than an RN, explain to me the importance of charting everything. For some reason, I was almost in tears. I am not stupid, I am not careless...but these events are making me think that I really am, however I know that I'm not.I don't care what anyone says, nursing is HARD...school doesn't even prepare you for the real world. Not even close.