I am a new grad and the first position I was able to get was at a SNF/Rehab. Most of our patients are sub acute, but the new admits can still have very high acuity. After 4 weeks of orientation, they put me on the floor with a patient load of 11-14 and this is considered low census! On the days that they put me on a specific hallway, I seem to do ok because most of these particular patients I had during orientation, but they move me around everyday so I can get familiar with all the patients. I am so overwhelmed and feel like there is no way I can provide safe patient care as a new grad with 14 patients. Between doing all of my vitals, passing meds, inputting orders, calling doctors, doing skin checks, passing afternoon meds, and charting on everyone, I just can't seem to get it all done. I know I am only 1 week in, but I just feel like this is too much and want to throw in the towel. I come home and think all night about my day, sometimes I just cry in private. My husband knows I'm having a hard time because I'm distant and not my upbeat self. 4 weeks is not enough time and 11-14 patients is too many. All day I feel as if I'm being pulled in a million different directions and trying to answer questions for PT, doctors, OT, and administration that I don't have the answers to. I guess I'm not sure if I should stay or go. I really need a job and it took me almost a year to find this one. I feel like if I quit now, who knows how long it will be before I find something new because no one wants to take a chance on a new nurse. I want to stick it out and I hope I can adapt, I'm just so scared everyday I go in. Thank god for the wonderful nurses I work with who take the time to help me when I need it. If it weren't for them, I don't know if I would have come back after my first day on the floor. I guess I'm either looking for advice, or just needed to vent.