For the last couple of years I've been working on my pre-req's to apply to the nursing program
. I've been gungho about it and now, now that I'm at the end of my last pre-req, and about to apply in May I'm starting to feel like maybe this isn't for me. I feel like maybe I secretly don't want (or don't think I can)to succeed in this. All of my adult life I've taken on classes toward degrees that I've never finished. First there was business admin, then dietitian. Now I feel like I'm at another cross roads. Just because someone (another pre-nursing student) told me about PTA (Physical Therapy Assist) program. Then I started thinking of all the reasons maybe I don't want to be a nurse. Mainly the fact that I'm way way WAY empathetic and turn into a puddle of tears when something bad happens to someone else. After doing a lot of research I'm seeing that PTA is not nearly as good as my fellow student made it out to be. But I'm confused because I feel like "why did I almost completely change my mind AGAIN?!?!!?!" I feel like maybe I'm almost expecting myself to give up or fail. Or maybe I'm just afraid of success. Or don't think I'm good enough to succeed? I guess I'm writing this because I'm hoping I'm not the only one who's felt this way. Maybe I'm looking for encouragement.....Thanks for listening to my psychological analysis of myself and letting me vent.