I'm at a fork in the road and don't know where to go. I recently had an emergency D&C to stop the excessive bleeding due to miscarriage in late august. I woke up in the recovery room 20 minutes after I was put under for surgery. Short surgery. I was approached by two nurses and administered O2. I was in pain and one of the nurses looks at me and says with obvious exasperation "What's wrong?" She guessed and came back with Fentanyl. I was surprisingly aware and lucid. Well I started to feel nauseated and not inclined to "bug" them again so I pulled a large metal trash can over towards me (it was only in arms reach away) so as not to make a huge mess for them to clean up. Well holy moly!!!!!!!! This nurses shouts from across the empty recovery room (2:45 AM)....."What do you think you're doing?".... and storms across the room and KICKS the can away from me and it falls with a huge resounding bang to the floor! We were both a little shocked and I just gaped at her. She goes on to say "Just what the heck do you think you're doing, you can't do that!" I'm saying sorry at this point but she stands there with both hands on her hips GLARING at me! Right about then I was wishing I was still in surgery. The shock wore off and I just looked at her shaking my head and whispered "I don't believe you!" I don't understand why I was so awake but I was, and I think she realized it too because she continued to stand there just looking at me. I speculated it was to anticipate just how much I'd remember but who knows. right?
At that point the loss of my baby and the incident just tore through my resolve and I burst into tears. I refused to look at her but I knew she was standing there a while looking at me before she put her hand on mine and said in a gentler tone "It's ok" She stayed there the rest of the time I was there fussing with my sheets and tucking me in(10 min) and as I was wheeled up to my room by a porter who was there the whole time, he said that she never worked nights before. I'm thinking who cares...its quieter in the Recovery room at night. Correct me if I'm wrong.
Now my problem. I decided not to make a formal complaint but I can't get the incident out of my head. I've tried but I feel a little traumatized for lack of a better word. Should I go to the hospital and say something? No doubt in my mind she felt bad but is that enough? I've run into a few bad incidents but chose to say nothing but I can't shake this one.I know the danger of falling in hindsight but I didn't even have to move much the can was THAT BIG! Will a complaint have an effect on my clinical rotation if I go through with it? Thanks for listening guys.