I have been a nurse for 25-plus years. However, I have been out of hospital environment since 1994. I have chronic pain issues for which I take medicine, suffer from sleep apnea (I am on CPAP at night). I also have anxiety and depression issues. My current job I am an RN for an Assisted Living/Specialty Care Assisted Living so I do not give medications. If we have a call-out that cannot be covered I will be responsible to give meds. This would be for nearly 50 "residents" with average of 10-15 medications, plus insulin and other injectibles. I am terrified of the day I have to give meds! I no longer feel comfortable doing this, plus feel my medical problems and medications make me a little dangerous in this regard. I do well in all other aspects. My question is: Has anyone ever been paralyzed by fear to do their job or give medications? How did you deal with this? I do not want to lose my job but not sure what to do about this. I have been on disability and could not afford to live! (physical limitations prevent me from doing anything requiring lifting and such). I love my residents, but I am afraid I may hurt someone. I am bordering on phobia and would appreciate any advice. Nursing is all I know. Thank you!