I am a new nurse working in a busy LTC facility. This was not my first choice to begin my career, however I had been out of college for 2 years prior to my passing NCLEX (due to unforseen circumstances) and I did not feel confident enough to begin in a hospital, so I decided to start out a bit, "slower" to advance my skills. I applied to several facilities and hospitals and this was one of the call backs I recieved. I am working full time on the 11-7 shift and I have to say...I absolutely hate it. There is nothing worse than going to work every day feeling absolutely miserable, however I know millions of people do it everyday, I just don't want to be one of them! Some of the CNA and Nursing staff are great, however a majority, are not so great. I see things I do not want to see (use your imagination) staffs attitudes are very poor and negative, and I get the "you've got 10 heads" look when I give report the next morning to the nurse and she's upset with me because I refused to do a certain task without an order from the physician. "Just do it" I've been told. Just do it? Really? I understand I have to stick this out because I do not want it to look poor on a resume to see I've only worked at a certain job for a few months, however, I absolutely dred going in every night and feel it may not be worth it. I'm not naive, I do realize that there is bad practice out there but I did not realize it would be this bad, some things that go on in this facility are enough to have ones license taken away. No exaggeration, it is that bad. The only thing I can say is that I am learning along the way, it is everything else involved that is making it very difficult for me to have a good experience.
So my question is this: Has anyone else experienced a similiar situation starting out? If so how did you manage and how long did you remain there? I appreciate any responses!