lol, i'm back again, i just thought of something else.
What *I* picture, when i think of anxiety disorder,
and what you, a unique individual actually do, when faced with difficult situations,
could be two VERY different things!!
There are many levels of anxiety disorder. I'm picturing worst case scenarious, like a person who shuts down, has a bit of meltdown, with physical symptoms, like hyperventilating, sometimes escalating to numbness, chest pain, etc, and requires much assistance to become stabilized and calm again, and is very unable to perform any duties, or even think about anyone except their own selves, til the crisis has passed.
Your idea of anxiety disorder, might just mean, you feel temporarily anxious, but, continue to function fairly well and continue working.
also, i have no doubt, whatsoever, that i have had coworkers with various types of issues that they struggle with. I worked with a very very bipolar nurse, who had her quirks,
but, wow, that nurse was a walking pharmacology resource, and could read a cardiac monitor like a face. I've worked with nurses who had to take time off fairly regularly to cope with overwhelming depressions, but, was a dream to work with otherwise. I've worked with some highstrung nurses, who may have had anxiety issues.
No one on the unit is "perfect" every day of every year.
lol, re 'gross stuff', when i worked E.R. i rather swoon over eyeball injuries. Mind you, i could eat lunch and change a colostomy at same time, if i could. i can hold severed limbs and be interested in how we will treat it, i have gone home with brain tissue wedged into the grooves on the soles of my shoes. I can manage suctioning phlegm, pretty darn well, and i can clean up blood, urine, poop, and most puke.
I don't even 'get' why so many nurses creep out over plain ol dentures, but, some do.
but, give me an eyeball injury, and it takes everything i have to stay steady. I rather suspect, i have funnelled all my gross outs, into only one (1) thing. (eyeballs)
I worked with a nurse, who can't do nosebleeds. Like me, she could deal with anything else, but, nosebleeds give her cold sweats.
so she and i, for years, always traded. I never ever took the eyeball room, she did. And i'd take all her nosebleeds, as to me, no big deal at all.
so, my point there is,
even those of us who have funnelled all our gross outs into one thing,
can find ways to work around that one thing, most of the time.
I once saw an E.R coworker in the ER, run and vomit into a nearby wastebasket, after the EMTs brought in a guy whose wounds had actual maggots in them. Naturally, they all went out and came back with an order of rice for her later that day, to tease her. (cuz rice looks a bit like maggots) Michelle, if you are out there, i miss you, contact me!
so i might have been a bit too fast, dismissing actual gross stuff, sorry. It does happen,
but, to me, it's not the most stressful part of nursing.
maybe a counselor who can really evaluate You, your own individual strengths and weaknesses, and help you better assess which career choices are best for you.