Quote from MusicalCoffee
Thank you all for the replies and well wishes; I appreciate them. I understand what some of you are saying about nursing school and the profession adding salt to the wound, if you will, but I know if I don't try to succeed at it, I'll regret it. Nursing is something my heart really is in. It makes me feel good to be learning how to help and take care of others, which is why I have a hard time understanding why the rest of me isn't feeling that happiness. However, I will definitely look into alternatives and take the suggestions given into consideration because if it turns out I cannot be a nurse, I would at the very least like to be in the medical field helping in some way.
I will also see what I can find on my school's policies on accomodation, though I'm a bit embarrassed to have to bring that up to my advisor. I'm not looking for special treatment and I don't want to be viewed differently because of this. I work very hard to maintain my grade point average, but at the same time, if something can help, it's worth a try. I feel a bit better knowing there are others going through similar experiences. Not in the misery loves company way, but rather it's nice knowing I'm not the only one feeling this way, even if I don't know any of you personally. I do plan on getting back on track, and again, thank you all for your comments.
I know it's hard to ask for accommodations. Usually we just grit our teeth and hang on desperately until the world falls out from under us, and THEN we wonder what the deuce hit the fan. It's happened to me I don't know how many times, and I never understood why until recently, when my employer decided to offer me "reasonable accommodations" for my illness, rather than allow me to continue floundering as I had been.
About a year ago I was diagnosed with bipolar 2, which unfortunately is proving somewhat difficult to manage. I've probably had it most of my life, but like a lot of type 2's I got away without being dx'd properly until the disorder was completely out of control. Now I'm on five different meds just for the BP, and although I'm vastly improved from where I was a year ago, I still struggle with it. So when I recently came under fire for my uneven performance on the job, I wasn't shocked when my illness was mentioned during the discussion of how to fix things. I've been very open about my health issues, and in a way I'm glad because now
I'm getting what I needed to do my job better.
Yeah, it's a little tough on the pride to accept "accommodations", because that means admitting we need the help. But as people have already said, if you're diabetic and you have to check your BG every few hours and make sure you eat on a reasonable schedule to prevent hypoglycemia, no one would think twice about it. Why should disorders of the brain be any different?