My name is Amanda I am currently a LPN.Because of my criminal history I was placed in a program for substance abuse when I graduated from nursing school. They have me do drug testing and 12-step meetings and things like that. But the problem is that I already relapsed about 6 months into my career. I turned myself in and admitted to everything. So the program I am in is pushing hard to keep me there. They want me to take a 6-week substance abuse class and do some other things and then I can work again. I feel absolutely ashamed of myself for relapsing...but the program is really pushing me not to give up yet. I just dont really know what I should do about my problems here and am looking for anyone that has possibly been in this position for help. Please keep judgmental comments to yourself, I come from a history of child abuse/sexual and I admit I have more issues than normal people have. That is why I was using...I wasnt going to work high, I used one time then felt very guilty about it. I could have gotten away with it but the nursing field is about honesty so I came clean and turned in myself. Should I continue to work with this program and keep going in the nursing field or pursue another career choice?