More Confessions Of A Nurse Who Compulsively Eats

Compulsive eating disorder, also known as binge eating disorder, is a distressful problem for millions of people in the United States. However, this affliction dwells in the shadow of less prevalent eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia nervosa. The purpose of this article is to shed some more light on compulsive eating disorder. Nurses Announcements Archive Article

It's the beginning of another new year, so I'm going to discuss the topic of overeating. Since masses of people across America are making new years resolutions that revolve around weight control, I feel this is an opportune time to broach this issue once again.

To get everyone up to speed, I previously wrote a piece entitled Confessions of a Nurse Who Compulsively Eats, which described compulsive eating disorder (also known as binge eating disorder) and listed all of the signs and symptoms of this affliction.

After successfully losing 40 pounds during the early part of last year and getting down to a near-normal weight, I regretfully announce that I've regained 22 pounds over a period of eight months. My distorted eating habits returned with full force starting in May of last year and I never quite jumped back on the wagon. I feel disappointed and disgusted.

I plan to jump back on the wagon starting today. Before I implement this lifestyle change, I will make some more confessions with which many compulsive eaters and binge eaters can identify.

The compulsive eater's thoughts are preoccupied with food.

I visited a local zoo with my cousins at the age of nine. Honestly, I do not remember one single animal from that trip, but I clearly recall the smell and taste of the pizza that I ate from the snack bar. Sleepovers, birthday parties, and school lunches never really carried any social importance to me, but I remember with striking clarity the snacks and meals associated with these events.

The compulsive eater watches what (s)he eats while in public.

My former boss, an engineer whom I'll call Dan, weighed more than 400 pounds even though he conspicuously ate a cup of 100-calorie fat-free yogurt and drank bottled water at lunchtime every day in the cafeteria for many years. I strongly suspect he was a closet binge eater who ate copious amounts of food in the privacy of his home.

I watch what I eat in public to avoid attracting negative attention. In fact, the all-you-can-eat buffet is one of the only places where you'll witness binge eaters consuming multiple plates of food in the public eye. The typical binge eater packs a light, healthy lunch for public view (school or work) while eating large quantities of food in private.

Compulsive eating has a strong emotional component.

I'm usually not hungry when I'm compulsively eating. I go on food binges because eating feels comforting in response to unpleasant emotions such as sadness, anxiety, nervousness, anger, or jealousy.

I've gained and lost large amounts of weight over the years.

I will be 32 years old in a few weeks. During my adult life I've been as light as 115 pounds and as heavy as 216 pounds. I'm currently somewhere in the middle of these two numbers. The most I've lost is 60 pounds. The most I've gained is 100 pounds. Yo-yo dieting has been the story of my adolescence and adulthood.

I realize I will always have issues with food. Although I wish I could seek professional help for this problem and the rest of my underlying emotional issues, I'm currently uninsured. Millions of people in the U.S. are compulsive eaters, the majority of whom are acutely aware that something is very wrong. Overeaters Anonymous (www.oa.org) is a free and helpful resource. With proper help, compulsive eating disorder can be remedied.

I'll keep you all posted on my progress. I cling to the promise of a new year and will conjure up the confidence to change my thoughts, health, and life for the better.

Specializes in geriatrics.

Good advice, but what some of you need to understand is that there is nothing reasonable or logical about an eating disorder. I am a very reasonable, goal oriented person with respect to most areas of my life. I'm a planner. However, the components of an eating disorder are emotional and psychological. You have a compulsion to binge. I could eat healthy all day long and have a short work out session, then wake up at 0400 and go trolling for food in a blizzard. There is nothing reasonable about that, and I also realize this at the time, but I don't care.

I know. My boyfriend is a recovering alcoholic, and when he gets stressed, he just substitutes food. Like when he ate all my precious hoarded Chinese food leftovers in the middle of the night. So now I hide them. AA seems to help him -- but then he addictively works out. He also had a very traumatic childhood. He can be so controlled about everything else -- but when he decides to mindlessly eat -- Katy bar the door. I realize I am naive -- but it seems like with alcoholism -- the more open you are about the problem the better. Nothing like hiding something for it to grow bigger. Sometimes it seems like everyone else is coping but you -- but truth be told we all are human, and we all have our issues, gremlins, and failures.

Specializes in Peds Medical Floor.
I know. My boyfriend is a recovering alcoholic, and when he gets stressed, he just substitutes food. Like when he ate all my precious hoarded Chinese food leftovers in the middle of the night. So now I hide them. AA seems to help him -- but then he addictively works out. He also had a very traumatic childhood. He can be so controlled about everything else -- but when he decides to mindlessly eat -- Katy bar the door. I realize I am naive -- but it seems like with alcoholism -- the more open you are about the problem the better. Nothing like hiding something for it to grow bigger. Sometimes it seems like everyone else is coping but you -- but truth be told we all are human, and we all have our issues, gremlins, and failures.

A lot of the time an addict will trade one addiction for another. For example people who are overweight and get gastric bypass surgery have been known to become alcoholics or shopping addicts.

And for all the people telling the OP to just count calories or try a certain diet - I know you are trying to help but DIETING DOES NOT HELP BINGE EATING DISORDERS!!! They actually make them worse!!!

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It has helped with the binge eating so much for me. When you can eat what you want whenever you want as long as you are hungry, it takes away that compulsive feeling away so much.

very comprehensive posts!thanks for sharing...I hope you will be able to attain your aim of becoming more healthy this year and that you can already remedy your problem with your eating habits as a whole! keep us posted...I'm sure you will be able to inspire a lot of people who are suffering from the same problem as yours!