I don't think I want to be a nurse anymore... - page 2
A month ago, I admitted to diverting and was fired from my job. I reported to ISNAP, Indiana's nursing assistance program and began the intake process. I have not received my letter from the attorney general yet, but I spoke with... Read More
- 3Apr 8, '13 by carrimarie1010I agree with the above post. We all wanted to throw the towel in and basically hide at the beginning. I know I did and I tried like all get out to convince myself I didn't want to be a nurse anymore. But deep down, even though I told people I hated nursing, in my heart I knew I was meant to be a nurse. I think you should take one day at a time. The wounds are to fresh to make life changing decisions. Best of luck.
- 3Apr 9, '13 by wish_me_luckOP, I agree with the people who say do not make decisions right now. Personally, after 8 days of having my license, I thought about sending it back because I thought of 5 years without being able to pick up a drink, that would be hard. But, I didn't. I thought about it again around the 1-2 month mark when my Board Order went public. But, I didn't. I even posted a thread on here about giving my license up, but was encouraged not to.
I have been in HPMP for 8 months and I am glad I did not send my license back. I have not found a job yet, but I am working hard and am at a place where I am stable and believe or not, the happiest I have ever been in my life. I am gaining experiences and meeting people that I would have never have met had I not been in this situation.
My point is, do not give the license up. After a year or so, if you still feel that way, maybe. After 3-5 years, sure. But, do not make hasty decisions the first year out. You may regret them.
- 1Apr 10, '13 by Meriwhen, ASN, BSN, RN Senior ModeratorAnother vote for "don't make major decisions while early in recovery" because you may regret them later. Work on your recovery first--nothing else will fall until place until you do that.
There are a lot of nurses in recovery who are working...even after going through assistance programs, even with stipulations/restrictions on their license. There's also a lot of nursing jobs out there where you don't go near a narcotic. So if you do want to keep being a nurse, it is possible. It won't be easy, but it is possible.
But IMO, worry about your career later. Right now, worry about getting your recovery established.
Best of luck.
- 3Apr 19, '13 by dadda11oI think there is a lot of good advice here already; I just wanted to say that you are definitely not alone. And despite how you might feel now, your feelings about many things may change as you go through therapy/treatment. A while back, I was not going to renew my license ... I still feel ambivalent at times. But I was encouraged to keep it up and it's nice to have the option ... there are a lot of career options in which your license could be valuable, but don't necessarily have to be anything similar to the nursing you were doing previously. I attended ISNAP support meetings in the past; it was actually incredibly helpful ... meeting people who look like they "have it all together" but are struggling with similar issues; I don't mean just recovery, either. The support group meetings are good for learning new ways to cope with life and work problems and re-experience some of the (positive) feelings lost through burnout or other issues that get folks into recovery. Occasionally, nobody else showed up for a meeting (usually in winter) and I was always bummed to be the only attendee ... the meetings can really become a positive and something to look forward to!
No matter what you ultimately choose, I wish you the best in recovery and future!
- 0Apr 21, '13 by student63I have been in nursing for a long time and I am getting a little burned out also. Some nurses have started their own nurses registry business. One of my friends went to a website that helps get it started. The cost was pretty good around $200 for the contract & $50 for the Marketing package. She told me that she already started her registry. I can contact her for info if you like. I'm planning to the same thing soon.