Hi I am a grateful recovering addict sober for 8 months. I have been in tpapn since October 2007 for diversion of narcotics and dont have any real issues with them surprisedly. My problem is this...I was able to get a job in November 07 at a surgical hospital which ended in termination not because of my nursing skills or anything with narcotics but because they didnt want to deal with the whole TPAPN thing and found a way to get rid of me. This happened in March 08 and after a month long search I was able to find a great job which I love at a Nursing home as an MDS coordinator. I was informed by my new employer that the company was being bought out by another. They told me that TPAPN would not be a problem with new company and the take over but I have come to find out differently. I had worked under the old management for a month and the take over happened on MAY 1. Every employee had to submit to a drug test that day which I passed fine. I was told just prior to the takeover that the new company does not hire TPAPN Period but they could not fire me since I already worked there. Since then I have found out about secret meetings with my advocate and been asked again about my circumstances of my addiction. I keep getting poked with this daily and I am about to have a nervous breakdown. I cannot afford to lose my sanity over this however I cannot afford to be out of work any more. I was out of work for 3 months initially and then worked for 3 months and then off for 1 again until getting this job. I have applied to every hospital with 75 miles and met alot of silence. The jobs I have found are either not appropriate with my restrictions or I just get over looked because of my problem. I have not been fired but I feel as though its coming for whatever reason since this company is so afraid of TPAPN. I have a clear license and I was not charged with a crime. My job at this nursing home doesnt require me to even think about drugs. I have worked so hard and come so far but I keep getting beat to death with my problem. I feel as though I am trying for nothing because just when I start to feel comfortable or actually enjoy what Im doing something happens. Why bother. Any advice or similar experiences?