Already Frustrated and Overwhelmed - page 2

I self-reported to ISNAP(Indiana State Nurses Assistance Program) on Jan. 26 2010. I have had a drinking problem for the last three years that has been limited to drinking up to 2 days/ week on my... Read More

  1. by   RN4HUGS
    Thank you all for your replies.

    I have taken this last month and have immersed myself into my recovery. I have a sponser and attend all my AA meetings. My substance abuse counselor is a recovering alcoholic and has been very good at helping me to better understand where I am at in my disease and how I got here in the first place. We are now working on relapse prevention. I had my first UDS which I thought would be a humiliating ordeal, but it was no big thing.

    Again, thank you all for your words of encouragement. I know that if I continue to do the right things and give myself to my recovery I will get better.
  2. by   bucksnut1981
    yes the situation does suck and it is hard to find a job when on probation with the board. At least you don't have narc rescritons or anything. It was very brave of you to notify the board with your problem.....hind sight is 20/20... they probalby would have never found out if you didnn't tell them. Everything in rehad is confidential from what i was told when i went through it...i was diverting from work and was told on and if you are doing this you will probably be discovered and reported so it is best in this situation to telll on yourself....but with no dui's or any criminal behavior you can probably get help without bering reported......good luck and take it ond day at a time
  3. by   RN4HUGS
    Bucksnut, Thanks for your reply. I did not report myself to the board of nursing. I contacted my state's nurses assistance program for help. The board of nursing knows nothing of my dealings with the assistance program and they won't as long as I remain compliant with my recovery monitoring agreement. My license is not on probation and I have no restrictions whatsoever. I am blessed that I have a great job in nursing and my employer is fully supportive. I was definitely feeling a little scared and alot sorry for myself in my initial post.

    Even though I will be in the program for three years I have to remember the despiration I felt the day that I contacted ISNAP(Indiana State Nurses Assistance Program). I have come to realize that I am sicker than I wanted to admit initially. Thankfully, I did not need detox or inpatient rehab, though if I did, I'm pretty sure they would be bound by law to let the BON know since I would be a nurse seeking treatment and that would be considered a public safety issue. I'm not sure that therapy and AA alone would be enough for me anyway. I need the accountability that this program requires.

    Best wishes to you!
  4. by   RN4HUGS
    Finished my monitoring agreement today. Things can and do get better.
  5. by   TXRN2
    huge congratulations!! what an accomplishment!! best wishes for your life, continued recovery....take care & may God bless you!!