Hi, I'm new to this site - please bear with me.
Anyways, I have just accepted a new management position on a medical surgical unit. I was hired from the outside. I'm a BSN & MBA and started this position about 3 1/2 months ago. The staff are okay, but the other managers are something to be desired (they are new too). This is a typical Med-Surg unit, the turnover is heavy and I am doing my best to make sure it is staffed (with agency if needed) before I go home every night. I am putting in about 11 hours a day since I have started. The other managers that just started - well, I don't think they are twisting the time - but we will see. I'm doing my best to keep up with whatever that is sent my way.
My DON will tell me one thing, then she will say something different in the next week. I am not sure if this is what I really want to do. First management job and I am just hating it.
Perhaps, I made a mistake and should just look at working for an insurance company or something. I'm not getting any younger and going back to the bedside full time is not really what I have planned - However, I do help when needed on the floor.
I'm sorry if this seems like ramble or rant but I am very overwhelmed and feel beside myself for feeling like this was a mistake and wanting to bail. I want to appear strong in front of staff, they need someone with strength to look up to, but I am just not sure if this is sustainable. Guilt regarding the thought of leaving this soon is building.
I really need someone who has "been there" - "done that" for some advice. Perhaps, I just suck it up, I don't know - however, if I am feeling this way now - I have to ask what will it be like after a year???
Anyways, thanks for "listening".........