I have worked at the same hospital for about 5 years. I started out as an Interventional Cardiology RN right out of school. I became one of the Night Shift Charge Nurses and was offered a position as Nurse Manager in the Interventional Unit. At the same time I was offered the ANM position I had applied for a job in the CTICU in my hosp. I have a great working relationship with the MD's and RN's on the night shift in the CTICU from being pulled to the CTICU SD over the years. Let's just get one thing straight, my ultimate goal as an RN was to be hired into the CTICU. Not the CTICU SD but the CTICU. It was my dream. I got the interview, and when I was offered the position in the CTICU I started crying. I knew what job I wanted right away. I had burned out on the Interventional floor. I had precepted, had been one of the charge Nurses and I felt I wasn't being challanged anymore. My co-workers were so excited for me and said they would miss me and we cried ALOT. I reminded them I would only be 2 floors away.
I start my orientation in the CTICU and meet my preceptor....my first thought was, I am so excited to be here and I can't wait to learn and build on my knowledge base from the Interventional unit. But I had also went from working 4 and a half years on night shift and suddenly was being oriented on day shift. No big deal I can adjust. Plus the position was for night shift, so I would go back into my routine in no time...so I thought....
So it starts......the one thing I said to my husband was, "I hope that this orientation goes well and isn't like the nightmare orientation I experienced years ago." He said, "You know what you are doing this time around, and you know you are a great nurse, or you wouldn't have been offered 2 jobs."
Yea welcome to my nightmare....but this time around I had experience under my belt. So I start in the CTICU, my preceptor came across very excited to teach me. Great that's what I wanted....
So my first week I was bounced to another preceptor who was amazing, she knew who I was and let me work and was an amazing teacher. But week 2 came and I was bounced back to my original preceptor. Then my decent into the abuse abyss began.
I was scoulded like a child, I am 31 years old. I was told that I didn't know how to properly put a BP cuff on the pt, ahhh excuse me.....I do believe I just taught you how to use the new monitors and how to activate the screens to be able to read the BP...and I did pick up a thing or two when I was IN CHARGE of the Interventional Cardiac Unit for the last few years.
I basically bit my tongue and grinn and beared it for a few weeks. I wanted to learn, but when you are constantly belittled and placed in a position of being treated like a child you tend to shut down. I would ask questions and be spoken to like a 3rd grade student. I would come into work in the morning, now remember I worked nights for years, it would take me a few to adjust in the AM.
I was told I don't care, I am irresponsible, and that I should realize that it is a privlidge to work in the CTICU. That this was the most prestegous job in the hospital and how I didn't appreciate that........UMM yea you crazy beast This was my life dream working in the CTICU, I know b/c I cried when I got the job, but now you are making it a living nightmare.
I finally came to my breaking point. I had a pt. who told me, "don't let that woman following you into my room. She is mean and she talks to you like you are not human. She yells at you for nothing and you are running around in circles while she sits on her hide, how are you susposed to learn when you are being yelled at for every minute thing."
The next day I went to my educator, I explained what was going on, and had a meeting. I thought things would change and for a few days they did then........I had enough, I was being told how I wasn't putting an IV in right, I have put in countless lines over the years in fact they don't know how to put in lines in the CTICU b/c everyone has a TLC, I just turned and walked out of the pt's room and said "this isn't my first time on the playground, I was offered an ANM position, I was runner up for employee of the month, a night shift preceptor, and one of the founders of the TCAB program. I am not a new nurse that you can beat down, I want to learn and you just keep grinding me into the ground, and by the way the pt. has 2 fresh lines I just put in while you walked out of the room, so don't ever tell me how to insert and IV ever again."
Standing there was one of the MD's who I have been friends with for years, he turned to her and said, "Ang can get a line in anyone, and she is a great nurse that's why I reccomended her for this floor, but you don't let her speak or give her a chance." I think daggers may have been shooting out of her eyes at this point.
And the worst part was all of my friends on nights in the CTICU were like, "Just get through it then you will be with us....we know how upset you are.." Infact some of the day shift and the night shift RN's and CNA's went to my director about the way I was being treated....
LESSON LEARNED for the second time in my nursing career "Note to self, no more preceptors..", ....my orientation was 3 months......I have beeen off orientation for almost 6 months, but have been a cardiac nurse for 5 years. I swear I attract crazy.
I have no hard feelings toward her. I know Karma is a witch!!