Hurts or ati failed nclex twice help

I feel so dumb for not passing my nclex pn on my second try I just want to give up how do I study again I don't know what to do my life is over I studied so hard and did my best and it wasn't enough I failed again second time I might not meant to be a nurse how do I get back up and start all over n study for the third time how how

I use kaplan online review and the study guide that been around allnurses.com and I did a little of la charty pda I just called and Kaplan is giving my money back I don't know if I should invest in another online course or study from book I have no idea my main problem I double guess myself and I change my answer a lot and I feel a need a little help in content too I just got my results and I had three categories below passing and four near passing and one above passing I am just so sad and I wanted this so bad