Sorry if this is in the wrong place. First time posting here. I have been a nurse for 3 years. When I first got out of nursing school
it was hard finding a med-surg position. So I started off working in sub-acute and acute rehab. I loved working with the patients and my coworkers were a great team. But I still wanted to work in hospital.
Finally after 3 years, I was hired for a med-surg position at night. I was so excited to be working and learning in med-surg. They gave me a month of orientation since I was already experienced. Two weeks of days and two weeks of nights.
The first two weeks I know I struggled a bit because I was not used to working day shift. I thought after I switched to nights things would get easier. My preceptors and educators did noticed I have been doing better on nights. But deep down inside I know I'm not doing as well as I did in rehab. I've had a couple of days on my own now and I'm feeling overwhelmed from the workload. I usually start off with 5-6pts and usually getting 3 admissions during the night. Meds, labs, Dr., fixing Ivs and charting I can never catch up on. I'm not used to getting so many admissions in the middle of the night back to back.
I can also tell from my coworkers that I might not be a good fit. I can hear them whisper about me, saying how come she doesn't know these things. It feels like they're annoyed at me. I feel like I can't trust them and I have never felt this way in other places I have worked.
So I have been working on this unit for about a month. I'm out of the orientation period and into the probation period. I have learned a lot and my skills have have become a lot better, but I really feel like quitting. I know I just started, but my gut feeling says things are not going to get better. I don't feel like I'm part of the team. And I'm not proud of the work I'm doing. Maybe med-surg is not for me. I have another rehab job where I work per diem and they're always asking me to come back. I know by quitting I'm probably going to get a bad reference and I won't be able to work at other hospitals affiliated with this one. Should I really give it more time or quit.