Crying about my job...

[LearningRN]

I am a 21 year old new graduate with about 6 months of experience. I feel like crying... I had a horrible day at work. My day started out ok. Then I was yelled at by a doctor since he wasn't informed of a consult that was placed a few days ago. I wasn't even working then. He yelled at me in front of everyone. Then my charge nurse yelled at me because I was slow to transfer a patient to another facility because I was going downstairs to the pharmacy to pick up a medication. I just wanted to give the medication before the patient left. I was really hurt when she yelled at me because I look up to her, and I consider her as a friend. Then as I was walking away I heard her tell a doctor (who is very nice) that I annoyed her. She may have said more but I was already too far to hear. That doctor has always been nice to me, but now he might think I'm incompentent. Yes, I'm probably being too sensative, and yes, doctor's yell, but why is that our norm? Why is it normal for us to get yelled at? I'm just too hurt. When I was on the elevator on my way to pick up the medication, I just started crying. I was overwhelmed. That day I had two admissions (one direct admit), infusing blood, two discharges, and had to count the narcotics. This is not including the wound cares and medication administrations. I went home late that night. I'm so stressed. I can't sleep at night, and I just cry so much over this job... over this CAREER that I now deeply regret choosing. I went into nursing to care for people, but I feel that nurses lose that care and it just becomes a job. I feel like I'm losing it too. I've never known for people (especially the nurses and doctor's) to be this mean and disrespectful to fellow co workers. There is so little regard for each other... So little respect... I feel that I have to scream and get angry to be heard... for the cna's to ask what I delegate for them to do, or to ask another nurse for help or for their opinion... I just don't want to do that... I don't like being mean... I don't WANT to be mean... I feel that being mean is a necessity for nursing... Sorry for the long post... I just had to vent... Thanks...

[Jubei]

I am a 21 year old new graduate with about 6 months of experience. I feel like crying... I had a horrible day at work. My day started out ok. Then I was yelled at by a doctor since he wasn't informed of a consult that was placed a few days ago. I wasn't even working then. He yelled at me in front of everyone. Then my charge nurse yelled at me because I was slow to transfer a patient to another facility because I was going downstairs to the pharmacy to pick up a medication. I just wanted to give the medication before the patient left. I was really hurt when she yelled at me because I look up to her, and I consider her as a friend. Then as I was walking away I heard her tell a doctor (who is very nice) that I annoyed her. She may have said more but I was already too far to hear. That doctor has always been nice to me, but now he might think I'm incompentent. Yes, I'm probably being too sensative, and yes, doctor's yell, but why is that our norm? Why is it normal for us to get yelled at? I'm just too hurt. When I was on the elevator on my way to pick up the medication, I just started crying. I was overwhelmed. That day I had two admissions (one direct admit), infusing blood, two discharges, and had to count the narcotics. This is not including the wound cares and medication administrations. I went home late that night. I'm so stressed. I can't sleep at night, and I just cry so much over this job... over this CAREER that I now deeply regret choosing. I went into nursing to care for people, but I feel that nurses lose that care and it just becomes a job. I feel like I'm losing it too. I've never known for people (especially the nurses and doctor's) to be this mean and disrespectful to fellow co workers. There is so little regard for each other... So little respect... I feel that I have to scream and get angry to be heard... for the cna's to ask what I delegate for them to do, or to ask another nurse for help or for their opinion... I just don't want to do that... I don't like being mean... I don't WANT to be mean... I feel that being mean is a necessity for nursing... Sorry for the long post... I just had to vent... Thanks...

I'd give you a hug if I could. Yeah, it's rough working med surg your first year as a nurse (I did it as an LVN). I would have cried too, but I'm a guy. WE DON'T CRY. Anyway, I've been around nurses who cried at the nurses station after experiencing what you went through, but they bounced back and became super nurses afterwards. TRUE STORY.

:)

[butterflynurse03, RN]

Don't ever let a doctor yell at you. He has no right. I have been yelled at by a doctor and made to cry myself. Another doctor asked me what happened and when I told him, that's what he told me. Be professional, pull the doctor aside and tell him how you felt. Chances are he'll appreciate the chance to apologize privately. You get your apology and he keeps his oh so important dignity. It isn't exactly right, but at least YOU would have been professional. I also had a doctor throw a chart at me because a patient lied to him and he believed the patient without seeking out further clarification. Unfortunately for him, the chief of staff got involved and made him publicly apologize to me.

Keep your chin up and just keep doing your best for your patients. You'll make it.