Just need to vent!!
I feel a tremendous amount of guilt for the way I feel. I prayed soo hard for this job and there are so many ppl looking for a job and wishing they were in my shoes. But I ABSOLUTELY HATE THIS JOB!!!!!! I dread getting out of car to walk in the door. When I get off I immediately start dreading coming back.
I'm an RN @ Ochsner. I really LOVE working for Ochsner. Its everything I could ever want in a company. Can't say enough good things about it
. However I work on a med/surg floor and we do team nursing
. As if med/surg wasn't challenging enough (especially for a new grad) we do not hv any CNAs just an RN & LPN team. We have 8 patients. We're paired together w/ no specific structure & just told to work together. Well that's all good as long as u hv a "good" LPN. But most times u don't! I hv found that most ppl @ my job are very unfriendly (RN & LPNs). Which is a big culture shock to me because I'm such a friendly person. Many of the LPNs are just plain nasty. On 1 of my shifts I had 2 diff patients refused to let her back in their rooms. (which meant I had to do my job & hers
. ) My main problem is no structure, we just play it by ear when ur teamed. Now many shifts I've been teamed with a
with an attitude. So I end up doing ALL the assessments, ck the mars, pass meds, answer call lights, wash butts, taking admits, doing dc, wheeling pts downstairs & then doing ALL the 24 hr chart cks. (did I mention we hv 8 pts) Oh forgot to mention no unit secretary either) What is the LPN doing u asked, vitals & passing half of the meds the rest of the shift she's no where to be found. Then @ 7 when I'm still doing chart cks she's out the door
. Other LPNs go out of their way to belittle me @ every chance they get to show that they know more than me. And when I do make a mistake the high school snickering & whispering right in front of me is heart wrenching. When I do get a lunch I always eat alone. I really love this company but I don't know how much more of this I can take.
Yikes, sounds like you need to do something! Isabelle is right, you need to delegate and take charge of your "team." What's happening is endemic to the profession: nurses eating their young. These LPNs probably feel uneasy and embarrassed that you're coming in there as an RN with no experience with the RESPONSIBILITY to delegate tasks to them. I would too if I were in their shoes. Some suggestions might be to face it head on. Don't tell them how you feel but instead just say, "hey, you're not pulling you're share of the load." There is no shame in approaching your management to deal with problems like these. Not only is it detrimental to you but to the patients too. And, as a corporation, Oschner would be smart to address the problem as they've spent a bunch of money orienting you. Best of luck! Keep your chin up!
Last edit by Proudblood on Sep 7, '11
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