Is Nursing Really for me? I think I hate it... - page 2
by Emily Star 3,973 Views | 13 Comments
I am in my last year of nursing and it's not even a full year. I have been so low throughout this journey. I have wanted to commit suicide several times due to school stress and I feel like my life is always a spiral out of... Read More
- 1Jan 30, '13 by GrnTeaOne thing to remember too is that all counselors are not created equal. Just as some nurses are better at cardiology or psych or day surgery, counselors have their specialties and aptitudes. Although when you're hurting and feeling like life is spinning out of control, it's hard to get up the energy to fire one and see another, it's something you have to do anyway if the one isn't clicking with you.
Counseling takes time. Six weeks with the MSW isn't going to fix all the problems you describe. As they say, we get into holes slowly, and it takes a long time to get out of them. As a former crazy person I can attest to the real benefits and rewards of pulling it together just enough to keep going in therapy. That's when you find out that there's nothing like feeling better to make you feel better. Truly.
There is free counseling available through your school, an area house of worship (even if it's not yours), or the local school of medicine or of psychology. Keep trying to do what you can to help yourself. You can do that. Do not give up on yourself. Whether or not nursing is your final career, a stop along the way, or something you have given your best shot and now are ready to leave behind you, your head will be your head and your heart, your heart for the rest of your life. Take care of them. They're the only ones you're ever going to have.
- 0Jan 31, '13 by boggleYou have been on a long and EXHAUSTING journey! Each step of your journey has been challenging. That, plus your ongoing sadness makes it understandable that you'ld have trouble seeing the future. So many of us have traveled the same rocky path. Please go to the counseling center at your school, today. (You've already paid for it as part of tuition). You have strengths that have helped you through trials before. Let the professionals help you keep moving forward. My love and prayers are with you.
- 0Feb 2, '13 by LadyMysticQuote from Emily StarIt seems to me that you have a beautiful and poetic soul. You talk about loving people and having a huge heart and that to me shows that something is very special about you because it takes A LOT to love another person. Yes, nursing can be stressful at times but the best thing about nursing is that it's flexible. You can choose what kind of nurse you want to be and where you want to work...there are even some areas in nursing that are in less stressful environments (e.g. aesthetic nursing). I personally wouldn't want to work in an area that demands too much from me and put me under so much chaotic pressure and if that would be the case i can always quit and find work somewhere else! Just know there's always alternatives. If you want someone to talk to you can message me :]I am in my last year of nursing and it's not even a full year. I have been so low throughout this journey. I have wanted to commit suicide several times due to school stress and I feel like my life is always a spiral out of control. I can not figure out if it's nursing, my life, or everything put together. I have been sort of pushed into nursing by my family growing up but never knew if I would like it. I then went to medical assistant school, then went to community college for nursing... got my CNA.. worked in a nrsing home for a while.. then went to a university and now doing full blown clinicals and going for a BSN. I never truly HATED nursing because I love people and I have a huge heart but... I don't handle stress very well. I was never taught very good coping skills and stress makes me down right ill physically and mentally. All nursing is .. is stress. I don't really like the high school attitudes of most of the nurses I have worked with and it just seems so tedious. I don't know what to do and I am always fighting with myself over money, the career being better outside of school (so it is rumored), people saying there are other options (which I don't know if I would like those either), etc. These thoughts become so overwhelming that I feel like there is no reason for me to live because happiness will never be an option for me. I have no real supports like most people have a family of sorts but I don't really. Emotionally I'm bone dry with the exception of my fiance' which he can only help so much. I just don't know what to do and I am so tired of battling with the reasons why I should and should not. Physically I am tired all of the time and the tiredness makes me dizzy and sometimes I feel like I am going to faint. I have lost weight, dieted, exercised, etc and have been on meds at times for depression and it really didn;t help. I was still conflicted and still hurting. I know I am not the only one that feels this way but there never is a real clear answer. I already feel so alone most nights and nursing is all I really have to be proud of... what can I do?
- 0Mar 8, '13 by JustBeachyNurseMany compassionate replies and helpful suggestions have been offered, however it appears that you need more assistance than this nursing website can offer as per our terms of service. Please seek professional assistance.
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