I'm a new grad, and I recently got hired on a medical/telemetry floor through a nurse residency program. I'm a month into my orientation, and I love it so far. Everyone on my unit is helpful and very supportive. I just completed my night shift orientation and recently began my day shift orientation. As a new nurse, I have made those stupid mistakes and I do learn from them. However, I easily beat myself up and feel horrible. Yet I see this as a learning experience, so I better myself. I loved my night shift preceptor. She gave me a lot of autonomy. By the end of my night shift orientation, I was caring for 5 patients on my own (with some help when needed, of course) plus admitting patients on my own. I was overwhelmed, but I couldn't believe how far I've come!
Now I just finished my first week of day shift orientation (5 total weeks of day shift to complete), and what a completely different pace! I do enjoy it, though, and my preceptor is wonderful! However, there was another new hire who was also in the same residency program that I'm in on my unit who was forced to resign or be fired. This scares me, and it makes me wonder if they will do the same to me. I'm always worried that I'm not competent enough, or that I'm not progressing fast enough--that I will lose my job. I do make some minor mistakes with charting that my preceptor helps me catch, and I do feel that I need to always improve my time management skills. I hope that's normal for a new grad. Plus I love my patients. I've had great feedback from my patients--never any negative.
I just hope the same doesn't happen to me, and that I will be able to handle everything on my own. I love nursing. I can't see myself doing anything else. I'm also just hoping it becomes easier with time...