NurseChic, If you have the determination you say you have, you will excell.
I want you to know that the second guessing of yourself needs to STOP. Nursing tests are multiple choice, just like the NCLEX, and two of the questions will be no brainer throw-aways. Two will be really hard. GO with your first choice. do NOT second guess. I cannot tell you how many questions I missed due to second guessing. I was almost finished with level three of a four level course. When I stopped second guessing, I made B's. I was a 4.0 student prior to nursing school
. After easy first semester of nursing school, that flies out the window. Remember, the C students who take the NCLEX have the same test and the same chance as the A's. Spend your time in nursing school focusing on patient skills. Nursing science is a must also, and also very cool. BUt there may be 20-48 page chapters to read in a three week period and you may not get to all of it. I repeat, focus on your patient skills. Like someone else here posted: For your tests, you only need to get 80% right to be a B student. Don't sweat the small stuff. I won't lie to you, nursing school is like boot camp. You will probably hate it.
They won't let you give any med that will kill someone without first checking off with your instructor. She/he will be your safety net while in school. Utilize them. Ask Questions. Seek learning opportunities. They will love you for it, and they won't let you fail. If you're ever in doubt, ASK. You won't be failed if you show caution.
You say you have a strong faith in God. Hold tight to that faith. But remember, YOU are the one in charge here. God will allow you to make mistakes, as your heart may belong to him, but your mind belongs to you. Do NOT go into nursing with any kind of "blind faith" that God will see you through. I prayed and prayed to him on more than one occasion and the only lesson I got from him was that I was weak and allowed myself to be branded a loser who let down my family. Thankful, should I be? I suppose. Am I? NO. Do I still love and trust God? You betchya. Some lessons he has to teach aren't the ones we think we deserve. Will I have blind faith again? Nope. I know that wasn't his intention, but he and I will work that out someday. He has given my and my family health, and happiness. I love him and thank him for that. That is, after all the ultimate gift. But he has taught me (much as I hate it) that I MUST rely on myself. He gave me the brain. I must use it. IT all comes down to me.
You have a support net, a family and BF. Oh how you need them now! Use them whenever they are willing to let you. You will need all your spare time to study.
Good luck to you, sweetie! I bet you'll do just fine!