I am a Nursing I student and I am feeling very discouraged. I am 21 years old and have been working as a CNA in a hospital for two years. Anyways I notice in clinical that I am very hesitant when it comes to giving care as a nurse and not as an aide. I get caught up in the way that i usually do things at work for example giving a bed bath the way I choose too. But in clinicals in nursing school, everything is by the books so i have to learn in a different way.
I am upset because I feel like everytime i am in clinical, i am always doubting myself especially when my professor is very tough and is very into knowing the pathophysiology of our patients. I want to feel confident in my skills but i am lacking that confidence and think im not good enough. My care plans are always so-so and i struggle with them and it takes me like 5 hours to even get a basis on what im writing about no matter how many care plan books i use or internet resources, im so hung up on making my care plan perfect for my professor because shes always looking for "meat and potatoes" in the care plan which gets very frustrating. I just spent 5 hours on my care plan last night and i just feel like when i get my results back, its never good enough no matter how much i try.
Anyways, i feel im lacking in clinical and that the professor doesnt like me because im not on top of things like the other student. I want her to be able to test me on my patient and let her know what is going on but shes very intimidating and i kind of draw a blank around her. I have serious issues! I neeed adviceee!