I feel like I'm trying to be something I'm not

So I got accepted into a nursing program for Fall 2008, and I went throughout the whole first semester until the final, but then I found out that I had failed the first semester..and currently I am just working as a CNA, and I'm not even sure if I want to continue with nursing, try LPN, apply to other schools for RN, or start a different career as a social worker, medical lab tech, or maybe something in business.


When I was in school, I was working 3 eight hour shifts each week on the weekend, and really I always felt that I had no time back then. I felt that I had no time to breathe, no time to eat or excercise, or sleep. And no time to study because when I looked at the list of studying I had to do...there was always more. I didn't know how to study, what to study. I ended up buying so many extra books...

Also it seemed like almost all the other students had really supportive families, with my family, when I come home, we argue, they aren't supportive.

I have never really been one of those people that are the best at anything, I don't even know if I am like other people in my class. They are very eloquent and smart, and very able to handle the stress that nursing comes.

Also when I started school, I started having panic attacks and they haven't gone away since I stopped going in December. In fact they are getting worse.

So anyway...what is your opinions on this? i feel like if I become a nurse, or try, I will have that feeling of "I HAVE NO TIME"...all the time even after I graduate.

I think its just time for me to just sell my nursing books on ebay and move on, but really that is depressing too.