Feeling sick to my stomach

[mia]

Please comment. Heres the situation, I got the clinical award for a particular class. They gave the award out the day that our final paper was submitted. Prior to this I was having a serious case of senioritis. All I cared about was getting the grade I needed to pass the class and graduate. I know that sounds terrible and its not usually like me. Anyway, I did not feel I put my best into my paper....not at all. Honestly, I did not even proof read it (eek, thats embarassing to admit).Today I went up to get my paper and see my grade and I hear my instructor talking to another. She was comparing the work of two of her students.One was an "A" student and her paper "wasn't bad" but the other student did a great job. Then she said "but now it is too late." Of course I freaked out and I thought "Oh my gosh, she's talking about me and now she regrets that she gave me the clinical award!" When I got my grade, a 93, I felt better. But then during our final conference our instructor commented to the entire group what a great job "Cyndi" did on her paper.... and she did not realize until now all the work this girl put in at her clinical. Now don't think I was a shlep, I did alot of good stuff too and I know my preceptors really liked me and thought I helped out alot. It s just that my paper wasn't great. Do you think I should ask my instructor if she would like to give the award to someone else or do you think I am being paranoid. This instructor does teach a few other classes so she could have been talking about someone else but I have this sick feeling in my stomach that she was talking about me. What would you do?

- Mia

[larae09]

It wouldn't hurt to go and talk to the teacher though. Let her know what you heard and ask her if she has a problem with your paper. It might at least put your mind at ease. I don't know what I would do if I was in your shoes but that is an option.

Suzanne

[fergus51]

How is 93 not great? Take the award and stop stressing about this. Be proud of yourself and let go of the angst.

[pkmom]

I would go and talk to the prof about it. It will put your mind at ease and probably take care of that tummy ache too. I would hate to keep thinking about that for a long, long time.