feel like an idiot

Published Aug 16, 2011

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You are reading page 3 of feel like an idiot by katygw

Im a new grad working on a med surg unit, Im at about 4 wks in to orientation and just got put up to 4 pts. One pt got percocet prn and I gave it to him earlier in the shift..well me being so smart decided to just peel them out of the packages and into his hand..well one went flying onto the floor..just on there for a couple seconds and he insists he'll take it while I was saying Ill get another one..it all happened fast and he ended up taking it...feel like punching myself in the face afterwards and thinking he's going to get some hideous infection..will NEVER again happen...well later on he was due for it again...same thing when one fell on the floor (Im so graceful) this time I insisted and said NO I am getting you another one..put that one in the sharps and got another but it didnt even occur to me to waste it with another nurse! I was so focused on getting the replacement it just didnt enter my brain. only when I got home and realized "crap! itll show I pulled three!" I informed my manager this morning via email as I have the day off today and wont be in..she said to let my preceptor know and to read up on the policy and said what to do next time...she is very nice and has never been the intimidating scary manager so I appreciate her understanding..she wants to talk with me tomorrow (but had a smiley face next to this statement in her email so I think it's just to see how Im doing)...bottom line I just feel like an idiot! a. about the pill on the floor and then b. not wasting the other one when it happened again...It's just hard for me right now to think of each thing on a busy med surg floor when Im trying to adapt to handling 4 pts...Im worried about the dropped pill and I feel bad about the mistake with the waste...I just want feedback and ...not going to lie...some comfort if possible...I really beat myself up over things like this and I know neither thing will happen AGAIN...I know I have to look at it as learning...but I still feel crappy about it. learning and remembering everything in a fast pace environment like this is challenging for me..but I know those two things wont happen again.

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