This is long -- so sorry... I'm venting (/crying) and I'm so afraid of what people might say, if there is any response at all. This is a really personal and important subject to me so be kind please.
I'm graduating this month from college (private) with a large amount of debt. I was initially going to become a teacher, so I'd go on and get my MS in Teaching and be even more in debt, and play it off forever. I'm going to work for a career, so I'm ok with having some loans, as long as I can make the payments.
Anywho, about a year ago I decided that I would be unhappy as a teacher, and what I really wanted was to become a nurse. I know I want to be a nurse. I know that this is the right choice for me, I am positive that this is what I want to do with my life. It was too late to switch my major, and I just figured I'd graduate and apply for an ABSN (after I get my pre-recs done at the local Community College - I'm working on them already).
So, I'm from Downstate NY (right outside the city) and I've been looking at programs, and they are priced astronomically! CUNY Hunter is affordable, but insanely competitive. The rest are 50,000+ (NYU - a dream of mine - is 70,000). I'm kind of freaking out about how much this is going to end up costing me.
I will be applying for financial aid (inside and outside the programs, like for example, Tylenol has a scholarship), but there are no guarantees in life. I'm a serious planner and budgeter, and I've made calculations and spreadsheets with what I'll have to pay back, the timelines, how much it costs to live in NYC when I graduate nursing school (all the insane extras included).
I can't just become a CNA or get an associates, because the hospitals in NYC and the burbs are not really looking to hire new grads without a BSN (from what I've read.. and in this competitive market, I don't know if it's worth taking the chance that they will).
I get it, I know everyone's going to tell me I'm insane for having so much debt and to not persue this degree. Please don't reply with stories about how you graduated with this little amount (because it will only make me further regret my first degree... who lets an 18 year old decide what they want to do with the rest of their lives, anyway?), or I should wait and things like that.. I can't wait. I'm going to need a job! I'm already in the hole, and I can defer my loans when I'm in school..
I need some support! I think I just need to hear someone say I can do this and I'm not an idiot. I find that people here can be overwhelmingly kind or brutal... I just feel like I'm in expensive limbo