new nurse/graduate nurse

[AngelofSeduction]

so i passed my nclex. license came in. i'm happy of whta i accomplished but now i'm scared to start into the real world.i never thought about what i wanted to be at least i dont remember from when i was younger. i came to the U.S when i was 10 with no english. mom worked hard put me through public school to learn English then i went on to catholic school for the remainder of my time.i've always excelled in school because i made school my priority. coming from a haitian background education is very important..it is before anything so i was always consumed into my school. no socializing friends or anything. went on to highschool and still didnt know what i wanted to be but once again i worked hard and was bringing home the good grades. when it came time to applying to college i was new to the whole process and didnt know much about colleges so i was relying on what the guidance counselors said. but for some reason i always said i wanted to be a psychologist because of i liked to talk to people and give advice i guess. i told my mom this and she said she wasnt going to pay for my school and told me to go to nursing. i never thought about nursing or even thought about the school i went to which was molloy college. one of the best for nursing. i got accepted after my first semester in 2008 and the rest is history. went through A7P so many classes i thought i would failed but God guided me through the whole program and excelled with a 3.5 for 5 years. didnt even graduate with the people i started nursing with..eitherr they failed out, got left back or left school for another major. sometimes i ask myself am i really smart ( people tell me i am) or do i just have a good memory. i know nursing is not easy and i worked hard.i eat and breathe nursing monday - sunday no social life just school. now that i graduated and passed i am nervous to start the real world. i feel like i dont know enough or what if i what i learn in school i cant apply. what if im too slow with the skills, i dont pick up on things, not observant, dont know how to give report.all these things going through my head. like i said i never though about nursing but from doing intern i have worked with med/surg and met a lot of geriatric and i feel comfortable with them and a lot of nurses and patients have told me im gonna be great but i worry because i never dreamnt of being a nurse or whatever. im like how am i going to advocate, form relationship with patients. i really dont want to be those people who's in it for the benefit. i really want to be true and really care about my patients and so on...i know i ramble alot but any tips would be helpful. thank you

[calivianya, BSN, RN]

When you first graduate, nobody knows how to give report, nobody does all of the skills right all of the time, and everyone is awkward with forming relationships with patients! At least, 99% of us were/are. It sounds like you're approaching this with the right attitude to me, so I think you're going to do just fine. :)

[AngelofSeduction]

Omg you just put a smile on my face. Im always freaking myself out but i gess thats good