I'm a new CNA, and about 3 months into my first job. When I read your title I thought that I could have very well written this post too! I took this route to get an idea of the health care field, to see if I really wanted to put the time and money into becoming a nurse. And I've decided no! I work in LTC, and yes all the nurses do is push pills, and fill out tons of paperwork. Yes I know there are other aspects of nursing, but I've realized that I wouldn't work well under that kind of pressure. I feel enough pressure trying to get all my residents cared for properly and in bed when they want to be, I can't imagine actually having someones life in my hands. Giving residents/patients medication worries me too, what if I missed something and gave the wrong thing, or didn't catch that the new prescription might not go with the current meds.
It's also a bummer always working every other weekend, and knowing that I will have to work on many holidays. I would like to have a family one day, so I need to think about that.
I went into being a CNA wanting to help people and feel like I'm doing something beneficial to humanity. I know that I am accomplishing that, but I also feel quite jaded by the work load, and the constant bell ringers. I always thought of myself as a sweet go-for type person, maybe it's helping me to turn over a new leaf in life.
Through this experience I have decided I still want to help people. But I think I may take a more alternative medicine route. I believe our bodies are so amazing, and would like to learn more about the truly holistic aspect of things. I know there is definitely a time and place for medications, but I feel like we jump too quickly into them. It would be nice to learn more natural ways to deal with different ailments.
Sorry for the long post, I guess I needed to vent.