Thanks for the detailed reply...
I'm also struggling with the notion that I really don't want to become a part of the intense medical model at birth- I've supported clients as a doula and it's been heartbreaking to see many of them have to "obey" OBGYN's, despite their own wishes. I would ideally love to work in a birth center or attend home births but I feel like the CNM route is better for employment overall then the CPM route, although at heart, I don't know if the CNM schools will teach me what I need to know to be a more holistic practioner. I figure I could be a CNM and then still be a CPM...