Yay Distraction oh How I have been waiting.

[newmommy26]

So for the past 106 days it has been all about AA and living and breathing the BON/PNAP. Today I go back to grad school and back to really focusing on something other than nursing and sobriety. My masters is in Health Care Administration and is about as far away from bedside nursing as you can get and still be in the health care fieldish. I am a little worried about after finishing papers and the old days (106 days ago) I would celebrate with a drink, I am guessing this time I will celebrate by hitting a meeting. I wonder if I am alone when I say I cannot wait to focus on something other than Nursing or sobriety and nursing. I would rather just live life one day at a time with the meeting a day or every other day and forget for a long time that I was ever a nurse, until of course that day comes for reinstatement.

Thanks for letting me share.

P.S. For and spelling/punctuation errors, I apologize ... lol

[Twoyearnurse]

I know who this is! Hey love! Congrats on another day sober, and congrats on starting school again! Oi vey you are one busy woman, I applaud your effort. You can do this. I've felt the same way, there is that very very thin line between living a life of sobriety and within the comfort of aa and our higher power and using those things to keep ourselves away from what frightens us. I can not bare to think about a nursing job, it sends me into fits (not literally, but it does move fear and anxiety in me). I am working on keeping the process moving while maintaining healthy distance (speaking with the board, and complying with their demands) from the idea of nursing. I am confident that as I move further into my sobriety the idea of a nursing job will become less terrifying. There is that fine line.