Where to go from this point....suggestions please!

[amyrose]

I like you have safety and integrity in mind and I started a new job in Feb right after passing my boards. All the info is fresh in my head and I have retained a lot b/c I studied hard and put forth a lot of effort into my eduction. After 2 weeks into my new job I was called into the office and confronted b/c people were complaining about me being a "know it all."

One poor orientation session with someone who made it clear he was not getting the extra pay to orientate (b/c he chose not go to the class) and angrily going about his job as if I was not there for the first 30 minutes and then being rude for the remainder of the day. This person also wanted me to send a letter to a doctor with information I was not comfortable stating, thus prompting a refusal to write what he said started this downward spiral. And while personality and learning style differences (I have ADD) play a large part in this situation I was given work to do while I was orientating that was not appropriate and took away from learning time, I was also told to do things and offered no guidance.

I know that I have a lot to learn (a whole lot) but instead of being perceived as helpful I was perceived as "conceited", which I am not. I am trying my hardest to see this as a learning experience about myself but it is HARD under the circumstances and it is even harder to know that I was just not liked and talked about behind my back instead of being corrected or taught.

I am pt/resident focused and it feels as though my lack of interest in potlucks and conformity to picking up slack for the supervisor were undesired qualities in this particular environment.

To make a long story short not only did my confidence and self-esteem take a nose dive rendering me generally incapacitated and defensive, but I was let go d/t being a "poor fit".

Not exactly sure where to go from here, I am in all honesty glad I do not have to go back there, but that does not lessen the sting. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated! I am genuinely trying to take a good hard look at myself at the moment to see if there is any truth in their claims but that is not easy to do either. Thanks for listening.

[j464335]

It is hard to learn how to "conform your personality" to please other co-workers.

However, it seems this is one profession that makes it a necessity to be a "people pleaser" and it is not easy given the fact that other nurses can make that near impossible at times. It definitly brings back memories of middle school,lol! Try to look at this objectively, learn from it, and move on.

Being "humble" (even if you have to fake it) generally pays off.

[amyrose]

I have never been much of a conformist and as an IDEALIST, that is difficult for me, I am also a natural leader (for sure not by choice lol), but I am willing to give conforming a try.

Right now I am working to renew my confidence and self-esteem, and that can only be done with-in.

Humbleness is required in a new job setting I do not disagree with that in any way and I just do not understand the "middle school" politics lol (but OMG this term hits the nail on the head).

I have strong beliefs in fairness, justice, KINDNESS and TOLERANCE, these often trip me up too. THanks for the advice I will include "acting" humble (lol) in my attempt to rewire my way of thinking!

I genuinely appreciate your honesty and straightforwardness!

[caliotter3]

On your next job, in the beginning especially, be sure not to "rock the boat". Don't challenge them about anything (unless it is life or death for the patient). Be a little "yes" girl with a fake smile on your face and try to stay out of everyone's way. Not a very adult way to behave, but sometimes adjustments have to be made to facilitate survival. Good luck finding a better place to work.