I'm trying not to have my tail between my legs, but I was told today that I didn't cut it for the IMC unit. This, after killing myself to pass all the courses etc...I only had 4 weeks on the unit with an additional week in the ICU b/c after 6mos you could be floated there.
I'm a bit surprised b/c I met with my NM last week to make a plan. She told me she didn't invest all of this money into me and that I"m bright and am picking up well, I just needed to build more confidence in myself. I checked off on all the skills, I was able to get all but 1 ABG, IV starts. But learning the new computer plus orders AND watching monitors etc.... well I was told it's hard for everyone and what I was experiencing was normal.
I had 3 weeks of class time. 1 week was hospital intro stuff for all nurses. The next 2 were a critical care course and a basic arrythmia. So like I said, that's 4 total weeks on the unit that I was supposed to be hired for and then another in ICU.
My NM told me point blank that she felt she let me down with my original preceptor, b/c she focused on all the wrong things therefore I didn't get the best start and she was sort of new herself. She put me with my ICU preceptor who has 20+ years and things were going better, but c'mon 1 week of time? My preceptor even said today that she saw massive improvement in things I picked up on and went to the doctor with.
My NM is saying that I'm going on 9 weeks of orientation! um what? I've had FOUR on the unit. 1 in ICU And even though she told me last week this exact time, she was extended my time by 1 week (which is what everyone else got too 5 weeks on IMC/ plus the 1 on ICU) she just flat out took away that option today.
I think if she was having concerns she should have said something before, we had a long talk about this and she mostly blamed herself for not giving me the right preceptor that could teach well. She said the average yr experience in IMC is 2 years and she's afraid that if I got stuck, I'd have no one to really guide me well!
Well I'm stunned and in shock as the hours are not what I signed on for. It's 5 8's and I thought I was going to be 2 8's and 2 twelves. And it's days/evenings instead of days/nights.
It's on an ortho floor, I have no idea what to expect. I have no choice and I feel completely misled. She said she would hire me back in a heartbeat in 1 year, but right now I need to learn the charting better, and basic things. This may be for the best but right now I can't see it. It's like I've gotten thrown to something that I didn't even sign up for in any way. Like the hospital owns me, which I guess they do...but it sucks. This might get me closer to my goal of pain management, but I really wanted a year or so of the critical, just to have. If I do in the future I think I'd go to a different hospital, I respect honesty not being told you're doing fine and then bam. As much as I liked her, I'd have a hard time trusting her now.
Enough whining for 1 night. Did this ever happen to anyone else, hired for one thing sent off for another? How did you cope?
Oh, and then she says no one on the new unit needs to know why I'm there, in other words I could say I just came from my previous job, or that I chose to resign I guess. I'm grateful for a job, but this just increases the reasons I don't want to be in a hospital. I'm just numb right now.